#idk how i never noticed this lel

[dogmaz]

Noticed this animation error from episode 1

[harold231]

It wasn't real

Pairing: Bucky x reader

Posted: 04/30/2021

Word count: 2.5k

Warnings: None? Maybe a lil angst just a lel bet.

A/N: I think it might be good? Idk You let me know. But like frfr, don't just give me feedback in your mind, put it into words. Also I apparently have a thing for Bucky in a dotted apron soooo yeah.

FYI: time zone/era is open for interpretation. Bucky never became an avenger/soldat and steve isn't part of this one.

The wind that blew around you was warm and sweet with the scent of freshly bloomed flowers. Perhaps it was an act of kindness from some God trying to distract you from the cold bitterness settling into your bones. Closing your eyes you conjure the very memory that left you so desolate.

The sun snuck it's way through the curtains to illuminate the room, effectively disturbing the sleep that you always seemed to be craving. Waking up is always hassle but whenever you remember that you get to spend your day with the only person who tolerates you and you him, getting out of bed is the easiest thing. Bucky is crazy and the damn boy is never in one spot for to long and he always has something to say, but you can't imagine how boring your days would be if you guys had never met. well technically if your parents had never met.

When you were a child you parents had to move to new york for business and they decided that Brooklyn was the place to be. You had been Bucky's neighbor and the first day you guys moved in his mom had dragged him over with the most delicious angel food cake that he so proudly claimed to have made mostly on his own. He just loved cooking and baking since forever, he would tell you that he just liked experimenting with foods but you knew the truth was that the boy liked to eat and didn't have the patience to wait for his mother to come home.

Only a few years after your family had moved to Brooklyn you and Bucky had already built an unbreakable bond. You guys had found a beautiful cherry tree one day when playing tag and had deemed it to be your's and Bucky's spot. Whenever you had a bad day or needed time away from the world you guys would go to the tree and just pick cherries, in the winter time you and Bucky would lay under the tree and kick the trunk so that the snow would fall from the leaves. It was the place where at only 15 years old bucky swore he would open his own Bakery and to quote him "I'm serving my ma's food my way doll, It's gonna be the next best thing to hit New York."

You were laying on the ground with your hands crossed behind your head looking up at Bucky swinging upside down from a branch when he told you all this. You felt something you had never felt before at that moment, looking up at the wild haired boy who loved to eat, loved his family, and had the most ambition you had ever heard from kids your age. Your heart felt full and your cheeks grew warm as you looked up at the same blue eyes you had know for years now, only this time you notice the way they twinkle in the sunlight and how rosy his lips are. Now 7 years laters you and Bucky were preparing to open the very bakery he promised you he'd open. Banners were beautifully strung along the walls and cute retro china was set out, ready to be filled for opening day. There was no hesitation from you when Bucky had asked you to run the bakery with him, you were excited to spend your days with the person you hoped you would spend the rest of your life with.

At around 6:30 in the morning you had arrived at the bakery but it seemed that Bucky had beat you to it. The smell of fresh angel food cake and cocoa danced up your nose as soon as you opened the door. Closing your eyes you smiled at the memories that it brought back. Moving to the back you grabbed your Disney themed apron and placed your bag and coat in its place before scurrying over to the kitchen while trying (and failing) to tie your apron. There in all his dorkiness was Bucky wiggling around to the chordettes. He knew that you loved the 50's aesthetic so he found a way to incorporate it without going overboard, by adding little trinkets, a jukebox, and even those cute little dining tables. In fact at the moment he was wearing a ruffly red polka dotted apron as he frosted some cupcakes.

Apron tied, you were finally ready to get to work. You walked up to Bucky bumping his hip as you reached for some cupcake pans, "Whatcha doin here so early Buck, we don't open until 12" he looks at you with squinted eyes, "The hell are you doing here so early." "Woah,woah,woah completely unprovoked. I'm just saying cuz' you were the one complaining about the opening time being set at 8. Like damn." Breathing out a huff of air he wipes his forehead with a towel "I'm sorry doll, I'm just super nervous and I couldn't sleep so I came to start baking things. I already frosted the ice cream cakes and I just finished the pies, but I was thinking that maybe we needed some cupcakes too, even though we already baked so many pastries and stuff last night I'm worried it won't be enough."

Setting down the trays you move to hug Bucky from behind holding him close to you. "Buck I know we'll do great your food is too good to pass up on especially when it's free." You place a soft kiss to his shoulder " I promise you'll do great, everything you do is amazing you try your hardest at everything Buck, You've worked your butt off and made mine considerably larger to get here, don't start losing your mind on me now." A cute little laugh from Bucky lets you know that he's hearing you and he isn't so stressed anymore. "I just want this to be perfect ya know?" with your head still against his back you nod, "I just want it to be a special day for my special girl."

You couldn't stop the slight blush that rose to your cheeks or the way that your heart suddenly started beating three times faster. You had also wanted to make him something special which is why you had got here so early. Finally releasing your hold on Bucky you straighten your apron out before gathering everything you need for some red velvet cupcakes. Bucky loved your red velvet cake so you loved making it for him. After hours of mixing, baking, and frosting had passed, you guys were rewarded with a bakery that looked as great as it smelled. "Alright doll, I'm heading out, I gotta go get ready. Meet you back here at 12 , Love ya." He didn't even give you a chance to answer as he ran right out the door. "Love you too."

You had stayed behind just a little while longer as you perfected your secret project. Carefully you added snowflakes to some of the cupcakes because you knew how much he loved snow even if he hated winter, some cats, flowers that reminded you of bucky, and one extra special cupcake. When you finish you decide to clean up a bit more and prepare some drinks for later before heading home to get ready. As soon as you got home you took a shower and did the simplest of make up with a light pink lip. You had decided to wear a dress to match the blossoming flowers that spring had brought. Pink with a yellow lace trim and flowers embroided all over the dress, matching it with some yellow flats.

You had decided that it was a perfect day for a walk so you grabbed a light scarf and slung it over your shoulders, grabbed Bucky's cupcakes, and headed over to the bakery. You felt as if a Hundred pounds had been lifted from your shoulders knowing that Bucky had felt the same way about you. You had decided that you would tell him today with your special cupcakes. As you rounded the corner you felt giddy and you couldn't wipe the smile from your face no matter how hard you tried. As you reached the bakery you saw that a majority of the people had already arrived and you knew that it would put Bucky at ease to see all the people enjoying his food. You stopped at the window, closing your eyes to take a deep breath to prepare yourself to join the celebration.

Opening your eyes you reached for the handle only to stop at the sight on the other side of the door. Bucky stood there arms wrapped around a woman eyes locked on hers as he leaned in for a kiss. It must have all happened in about 30 seconds but it felt as if time himself had slowed it down for you to watch the way he tilted her head and ran his tongue along her bottom lip before finally uniting their lips. Your heart dropped as quickly as your smile did and suddenly you felt so stupid for thinking this could be real. You willed yourself not to cry as you allowed your legs to carry you anywhere but there.

That's how you found yourself sitting underneath a blossoming cherry tree. A tree that held only happy memories because it wasn't a place you could be sad... back then. With your back against the tree and box of cupcakes full of unrequited love in your lap you realize how much you over romanticized Bucky. Opening the box you decide it would be a shame to let them go to waste. The first one you grab has a big red heart frosted in the middle, you let out a deep sigh before breaking the cupcake right down the middle. You shove half of the cupcake into your mouth and only then do you allow the tears to fall. You sat there for hours crying eating cupcakes, watching the sunset, and thinking about everything that Bucky did for you, as a friend. You realize you had no right to be angry at Bucky, after all you never told him how you felt you just assumed that he would feel the same way after so many years. With every broken memory another cupcake vanished.

He was always there for you, when no one wanted to come to your slumber party Bucky did and he even did all the girly things with you. Painting your nails, doing your hair, watching chick flicks, and pillow fights. once he even asserted that no one could protect you as well as he could, when you had decided to go camping with your friend from class so he insisted on taking you himself. Your friend was most noticeably gay so you had assumed he wanted to spend time alone with you. But now that you think back on those memories these are things that anyone would do for their bestfriend. And that's what you realized 8 hours and 11 cupcakes later.

The moon floated above you and as it's white rays settled upon the lake you decided it might be time to go home now. You get up and dust your dress off before leaning down to grab the mostly empty box. Turning around you are stopped again by what's in front of you. Bucky stands there brows furrowed as his eyes flash from you to the box in your hands. "Where the hell have you been, I've been calling you all day." swallowing the lump in your throat you go to answer but are interrupted. " everyone's been asking me about you all night and I had no damn idea what to tell them, but apparently you were just out here being inconsiderate. You go and tell me I can do great tonight, that you'd be there for me, but you weren't." You try to answer him but are again interrupted. "You could have told me something earlier instead of leaving me there like a dumb-" "SHUT UP!" this time it was your turn to interrupt him.

Taking a deep breath you look into his eyes before explaining. "Of course I was ready to be there today, you think I wore this dress to sit under a damn tree? Well I didn't. When I left my apartment I was ready and I was excited, so excited. I couldn't even stop smiling on my way over, but then I got to the shop and I saw-" Immediately you stopped as you realized what you were about to say. He cocked an eyebrow and shook his head slightly as if to say 'Hello?' "You saw what? What did you see that would make you abandon ship just like that?" Shame flushed through your being and you could no longer keep eye contact. "Nothing, you know what, it doesn't even matter. I'm sorry I was being dramatic I should have been an adult and dealt with it on my own time. And I'm sorry I abandoned you all, but the night was about you anyways."

"The night was supposed to be about the both of us so it does matter if you saw something that made you want to leave. Just tell me doll, what did you see?" his voice is soft as he pleads with you. "I saw... well I saw you kissing that lady and I just wanted get away and ended up here okay!?" You said it all in a jumble hoping that he wouldn't be able to understand what you had said. But luck wasn't your friend so of course he did. "So seeing me kiss another person was so gross to you that you had to run away, what the hell? are you 13 again?" You hadn't admitted it outloud yet and it seemed that the dumbass in front of you was going to force it out of you.

Stepping around Bucky you pull your scarf tight around your body as you focus on not crying anymore until you get home. You distract yourself by thinking of all the love you saw in all the little things Bucky did for you. Dancing around the newly furnished bakery body against body as frank sinatra brought you heart to heart, watching rom-coms and ugly crying together, but by the time you get home you force yourself to face the ugly truth. The Love was always in your head. It wasn't real.

A new wave of tears blurred your vision as teardrops fell perfectly to the ground. "It's because I have feelings for you Bucky, and I now know you don't feel the same way." Sniffling you don't bother looking up because your heart is to broken for that right now. "I'm Just gonna need a little bit of time and I'll be back good as new like nothing even happened." Still unable to lift your gaze from the ground you decide to focus on the last cupcake left in the box. 'I Love You' is written in tiny light blue frosting letters. "I uhm, uhh." That brought your attention to Bucky, as embarrassment pulsed as strong as ever through your veins. " You don't have to say anything Buck, It's fine, I'll see you next week, on monday" you hand him the box as you go to pass him "I think you would have a better use for this than me I ate 11 others already so."

Divider credits: @firefly-graphics

[ragnarssons]

Well season finales usually have some emotional moments but I don't know... maybe that line was taken from a hallucination? and then they deadass added it to bait. It would be a dirty move even for them but we'll see.

I don’t know because as some people stated, the line isn’t an accusation against Clarke. It’s more… confusion. It’s as much showing how she cares about him (calling him every day for 2199 days) and how much he feels she doesn’t (leaving him to die in the pits). For example the Blodreina projection was accusing Clarke of “giving up” on Octavia (and Bellamy) totally. It was not something that seemed conflicted about Clarke’s actions and feelings, it was full on something accusing her and hating her. All of Clarke’s thoughts, guilt and self-hatred coming from the mouth of someone she thinks hates her. I mean, we complain about a Bellarke talk missing so far, but I’d also say a Clarke/Octavia talk has been missing ever since ep11. They’ve just reunited after the whole Blodreina vs Wanheda thing, and it needed a convo to deal with it and… kinda bury the hatchet. The fact that it didn’t happen make their relationship lack of something. The point of showing Octavia in Clarke’s mindspace was to highlight her guilt regarding Octavia. But… then they didn’t address it when new!Octavia and Clarke came face to face? *sigh*I mean, are we supposed to be surprised? This show is always alwayyyys about the plot before the characters. It’s plot driven (and I hate it because so many times the characters would need to talk about things, but they don’t!). That’s why I do believe Bellarke will happen, because they’re the characters/relationship that consistently EXISTS with the plot. It is the relationship that evolves and breathes with the story as it goes- as Jroth said, “the spine” of the show. The season where all of this lacked was s5 and yet again, you could argue that it existed, just not in the way we wanted it to exist. And maybe it was natural for Clarke and Bellamy not to work in sync after six years of being apart- the problem is that it would have been more obvious/more understandable if the timejump had been more significant (again, FLASHBACKS, they coulda stole the Arrow formula and gave us glimpses of the past six years during the entire season). I will forever say that, given what they did with it, the end of s4/the time jump and s5 didn’t need to exist. You could erase them of the show, it wouldn’t change a thing. S5 didn’t move anything forward, it wasn’t new, it wasn’t original. Even the Eligius crew that could have changed the dynamic of the group today well… it didn’t, because Diyoza wasn’t part of the group during the season and now she’s dead apparently and we have no explanation and no real “justification” for that either (hence why people think she’ll come back and she’d better otherwise it would be a shitty end to an awesome character tbh). And Shaw died too. So, Eligius didn’t change shit, all the serial killers are in cryo and god knows when they’ll talk about this elephant in the room, ya kno. I think I lost myself. But to me s6 just confirmed how unnecessary and useless s5 was. If I were Jroth I woulda put everyone on a spaceship at the end of s4 and made them leave Earth at that moment. And then maybe have Monty and Harper sacrifice themselves to give birth to Jordan and help the ship go to Eligius. It’s like Jroth found an awesome - better than the 6 years time jump - idea (a new planet), one year too late, so he re-made the whole space thing just to put it in his show, like lmao. Anyway, back to Bellarke-There is a formula with them too. S6 was kinda different because they weren’t physically separated and we did see the lengths Bellamy was willing to go to save Clarke. But again, I have to agree with everyone saying that it was not enough. For all we know, Clarke could HEAR what Bellamy was doing/sharing with Josephine during ep9 and 10. So huh, why wasn’t this addressed? I get the “oh but they have to survive first!” thing, but-… that’s how you pull a cheap trick to delay something that is glaringly obvious. You don’t make Bellamy BEG for Clarke to survive, say he NEEDS her and that he’s NOT gonna let her go, and just be like “oh well they’ll talk about this once they saved their friends”. It’s the same bullshit they’ve been pulling since s4. Like okay before that, the delay was natural. She was with Finn, they were separated by MW, then they reunited but Clarke had just lost Finn and felt too guilty to “settle”. Then there was Lxa and Clarke’s grief. But-… even at the end of s4 it didn’t make sense to address what was already HUGE (excuse me, the List???). But then they separated them for 6 years. And s5 Bellarke had their issues that they didn’t talk about until 6x01 (and idk if anyone thinks this is over, because it SHOULDN’T). How is that normal? Years in the making things (Clarke calling Bellamy every day - EVERY; DAY - for six years) that weren’t addressed because “oh but the plot!” (and a shitty plot on top of that, s5 really sucked tbh). Thing is, if they ever address it, it’ll mend Bellarke so much that there is no escape to canon. So they FORCE them not to address it. And sometimes it’s so obvious that it’s embarrassing. Bellamy not addressing the fact that he put the Flame in Madi’s head? Not natural. Bellamy not responding to Clarke’s apologies on 6x04? Not natural. Bellarke not talking about how Clarke felt when SOMEONE at least was fighting for her when she, herself, in her own mindspace, was so sure that everyone had given up on her? Not natural. I mean, there are a lot of stuff that aren’t addressed as a whole. “For Monty” and all is nice, but the fact that Spa/cekru never explicitely talked about losing TWO members of their “family” is what makes this dynamic even LESS believable. The fact that Abby didn’t notice that her daughter was dead and that her reaction was not explored until right before her death is very telling too. And will Clarke even be ALLOWED to grieve for her mother? Her LAST parent, who got snatched by the same people who tried to kill HER and are torturing her daughter? Every time I think it gets better, it doesn’t, because ultimately, the plot ALWAYS takes over. They keep making Bellarke’s actions for each other more and more significant. But they never make the characters talk about it properly, so it’s just stalling at this point. Just like Bleggo and how INCONSISTENT it is (helloooo same than Bellarke, will they EVER address the lies that lie as a foundation of this relationship???? How DIFFERENT their philosophies are? Why put it in the show if you’re not gonna address it ffs??) is lazy stalling too. “Oh but look Bellamy has a girlfriend even tho we haven’t given them any scene together since ep4!!!” UGH. It’s just ridiculous, I’m gonna be honest, it’s frustrating how it’s handled. I love Bellarke when it’s intense, but the way the writers constantly drop the ball when it gets just THERE, is too obvious.  And it’s so lazily done. And it’s just to have the show going. And I mean, even if Bellarke is meant to be an ENDGAME couple, at some point, it won’t even make sense if that happens, because HOW LONG can they circle around this until it doesn’t mean anything anymore? How long can they do that until it’s just a tired receipe that won’t work at all anymore? It’s been three seasons already, three seasons of back and forth. To me, yeah, it really started going to this “exclusive Bellarke” place from s4 and going, and it’s already a lot. When I say I NEED BELLARKE TO TALK, it’s not “yeh you called me for six years every day let’s just joke about it lel”, it’s TALK. But as I said at the end of s5, talking would mean canon. There is no way around it. If Bellarke were to explore everything they do for each other and WHY, they’d be canon in the same breath. So the writers force them apart, over and over again. We’ll see in the finale, really. I can’t fathom a finale where the two leads don’t interact. And really, if they pull some space separation bullshit again at the end of the season, I might really drop the show. Because 1) it would be three seasons in a row where they do this and… no 2) it would be LAZY like they don’t have other ideas?? 3) I hate it. To me it’s contrary to the idea of the show. They’re NOT supposed to go to space, they’re supposed to find a place on the ground to settle. I was already super mad at the end of s4 where it happened. I was ANGRY that they left Earth at the end of s5. If they do it again with Sanctum/Alpha I might just-… what would be the point of the show anymore, huh? I really hope this quote “you called me every day” and all, was NOT added as bait. Because they’ve never done this and it would be really, a dirty move. They KNOW the radio calls talk (+ left to die in the fighting pits, coming from Bellamy) are two IMMENSELY important talks Bellamy and Clarke need to have. If they just teased it to bait us, then yes, it’s more than dirty, it’s shitty and I don’t want to relay on/trust the kind of people who would do that.

[flamedoesart]

stranger things season 3 review

SPOILERS AWAY, BITCHESSSS

(If you saw the season already, read more!)

Alright, this season had a lot of things I liked, and a few things I did not like, so let’s go over them bit by bit.

- I did like Eleven and Mike, I still ship them (have shipped them since they first talked in s1, lel) I know some people call their relationship unhealthy, but I really don’t see it??? Like yeah Mike was a low-key asshole to her in the first season, but he’s grown, and even in season 1, he wasn’t that much of a dick to her, it’s just her powers would freak him out sometimes. I like that they play out like the typical high school romance, they are still very cute (although I feel bad for Finn and Millie, the makeout scenes were probably super awkward to shoot.) I like that Mike struggled with saying I love you to Eleven, because as someone who’s watched Supernatural, and is too aware of characters struggling with saying I love you (I myself struggle with saying it,) I could relate to Mike in that way. 

-speaking of Eleven, why the fuck are they still calling her that?? It was hinted at the end of last season that because Hopper adopted her, they’d start calling her Jane. Idk, I feel like El should be given a proper name, and not just given a name that reminds her of her life in the lab. Just saying.

-Joyce and Hopper. I will not lie, I shipped them since season 1, and have been just waiting for their confirmation this whole time. I got that confirmation, but not in the way I wanted to. Seriously, what was the point of them killing off Hopper? That just adds more shit onto the psychological harm pile done to Eleven, and also Joyce, who lost Benny last season. (Although to be fair, it was hinted that Hopper might possibly still be alive.)

-I am so fucking happy they used Murray again this season, I think he’s a very interesting character, and I would’ve been annoyed if he was never mentioned again. 

-ALEXEI, MY RUSSIAN BABYYYY. He deserved better, wtf is wrong with everything??? (Also, am I the only who low-key got Murray/Alexei vibes, cuz idk the way they talked to each other in the final few episodes was.....well....ya know.)

-I am sorta annoyed that Will was so underused this season. They made him this super big deal last season, and all of a sudden this season... the only reason he’s in the plot is to detect when the MF (mind flayer) is nearby. Also, I am happy that it’s basically confirmed he’s gay, but idk....I don’t know why that’s important at all?? With Robin, it made sense because it was sorta building up (also subverting expectations) but with Will, it sorta felt out of place??? unless they give him a love interest next season, I don’t see why it was needed. (I really hope they give him a love interest next season, jesus christ...)

-ROBINNNN THE LESBIAN/POSSIBLY BI QUEEN. I love her so much. I thought she and Steve might have ended up an item, but again....subverting expectations. I am happy that she’s a queer character, and I am happy that Steve is accepting of her (especially considering how uncommon acceptance was back then...) She is an awesome character, and I’d love to see more of her.

-Max and Eleven are the ULTIMATE friendship. Although I have to ask, why did we need to spend an entire episode with them bonding, like???They’ve had a whole year, you would think that by now they would’ve been better friends. Or maybe it was an excuse to show the girl time.

-Dustin is awesome, I love my curly-haired boy. He still remains one of the smartest characters on this show, and I like how him, Erica, Steve and Robin all worked together to figure out what the Russians were doing.

-Lucas was just...sorta there?? Like he didn’t do much this whole season, I wish he had more development. Like I get it, there’s a lot of plot points to follow and not a lot of time to do everything, but I want Lucas to have more character, jeez.

-Billy, ooooh boy. I am happy they explained his backstory, and I feel like he deserved a lot better this season. I think it’s unfair that they killed him off the way they did, because now Max has to suffer the trauma of her brother dying right in front of her (asshole or not, Billy was still Max’s brother, and she cared about him.)

-Hopper is best dad. He just wanted to protect his daughter (and Joyce) and he died for it. (Or maybe not, we don’t know.) 

-why the hell did we not get more insight into the upside down, or anything in it??? this season was basically a copy of season 2, except the mind flayer had a bunch of zombies walking around. I mean, we deserve to know more about the upside down, considering the important parts in this show are centered around it. why does it exist? why was the gate originally in hawkins lab, but is now in a secret Russian lab under the mall? how the fuck did the mind flayer manage to waltz about hawkins during the final few episodes, and nobody noticed? i want answers!!!

-speaking of the russian lab, why is it under the mall to begin with?? you can’t tell me they built that lab and nobody noticed. the mall is a pretty popular spot until the plot needs it to be empty, so why was there a lab there? Hawkins lab made sense, because 1, it wasn’t underground, and 2, because it was sorta shut off from the rest of Hawkins. it made sense why nobody would question it. 

-why are the Russians the “villains” this season anyways? I get it, that shit was a pretty big deal in the 80s, but making the Russians the villains just feels sorta out of place. What I mean is, they didn’t have to work in real-world history to make the plot work, they could’ve done something else.

-I get this show has a formula, where there’s some shit going on with the upside down, and the three parties all find out certain information that ties everything together, and the three parties meet up in the final few episodes, but why can’t we change that formula? seriously.

-why are the parents of everyone who isn’t Will or Eleven (yes, Hopper is her dad) are just so not concerned with where their kids are? Again I get it, it was the 80s, people didn’t really worry too much about their kids back then, but I feel like Dustin’s mom, Lucas’s and Erica’s parents, and Mike’s parents just pay so little attention to what is going on with their kids. Hell, Dustin was gone for 24 hours trapped in the Russian lab, you’re seriously telling me his mom wasn’t worried? whatever, it’s just like IT where the adults don’t pay any attention to the kids.

Overall, I liked this season, but I wish they had done a lot more. Considering the ending, I am pretty sure there’s gonna be a fourth season, but godammit Duffer bros, you better wrap up this show with a SATISFYING ending (ya know, where Hopper is alive.)

I rate this season a 7/10.

[jungianca6]

15 Questions, 15 Mutuals

I was tagged by @ocearmin asfsdg thanks jen!

Are you named after someone?

maybe? sdsdgsd i never asked tbh

When was the last time you cried?

it’s been a while... a few months ago i think? lol

Do you have kids?

lmao 

Do you use sarcasm a lot?

Sarcasm is my main weapon against a lot of people lol

What’s the first thing you notice about people?

their general attitude towards other people? idk sdlfkjsd

Eye color?

brown lel i was born with option 2

Scary movie or happy ending?

scary movies have been so awful lately afsdgsh so i guess happy ending

Any special talents?

I don’t know if it’s a talent but i’m pretty good when it comes to numbers.

Where were you born?

San José

What are your hobbies?

snk LOL, drawing, staring into my cat’s eyes, biking, drinking

Do you have any pets

nope

How tall are you?

5’4″?

What sports do you play/have you played?

oof, i went thru half a dozen phases growing up: tennis, basketball, volleyball, gymnastics, ice skating, and dance. dacne was the only one i stuck with for several eyars.

Favorite subject?

i don’t actually have a fav subject lol but i do like biology.

Dream job?

pfft wish i could know asfsgs 

ok umm i’m tagging @eien-no-tsuki @ili-akkaman @mrsstampede @jeanb0 @soullessvanilladolly @roxalex @gguksae @deathkiddz @hilow @shitpost-no-kyojin and if any hoes from the discord servers sees this you’re tagged too (i just cant remember your urls adsfsdg ;;)

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15 questions & 15 mutuals

I was tagged by @lavenderlaces​ thank you so much !!! 🌿🌙

1. Are you named after anyone? nope, although i was almost named after my grandmother 2. When was the last time you cried? i think two days ago lel 3. Do you have kids? plant yes, human no (i don’t want human kids) 4. Do you use sarcasm a lot? me, using sarcasm?? never 5. What’s the first thing you notice about people? i tend to notice their eyes first then the rest of their face 6. What’s your eye color? dark brown, amber in light 7. Scary movie or happy ending? happy endings  8. Any special talents? i can have a mental breakdown about the tiniest thing ever :”) but on a more serious note, i have a knack for memorising things and organising stuff even though it takes me like. five hours to clean my desk rip 9. Where were you born? fuzhou, china!! 10. What are your hobbies? gardening, art, sleeping, procrastinating 11. Do you have any pets? three cats and a pup! and E’s housemate has a cat named mango who i like to call my baby 12. What sports do you play/have you played? I don’t play any right now, but i used to play soccer and run cross country and track 13. How tall are you? 5'2.5 14. Favourite subject in school? art and natural sciences (ecology, environmental science, biology) 15. Dream job? environmental educator in a national park, also maybe an artist on the side :-)

idk if i can remember 15 ppl off the top of my head but anyways: @esadal @pressedfloral @wizardscrystal @meromeow @artemissdomain @tsyhere

[tellywoodtrash]

bepannaah 19.03.18 lb

right. let’s do this. entertain me, ridiculously good looking ppl.

oh fuck what, is this a one hour show? please tell me it’s just for the first ep, coz i’ve already lost interest if this is a one hour daily. i don’t have the strength to keep up with this kinda bs.

god, it’s unfair how pretty this girl is. honestly.

seems like has god has compensated by giving her a real besuraaa voice tho. bb girl, pls stop.

oh god she’s one of those ‘aaaap’ and ‘hum’ ppl.

also weirdly codependent on her husband for weird shit like remembering song lyrics? ok???????

what exactly is this hot mess that she’s making???? somewhere in an alt universe, omkara singh oberoi’s chest hurts from the violation of “art” that’s happening here.

lel “hum aapka jhoot hamesha pakad lete hai” foreshadowingggggggg

hubba hubba who this mancakeeeee. chehra dikhaa jaanemann!

haaaaaaaaaaye his puppy eyes. such cyooot.

hmmmmmm this one’s wife is sick of playing mom to him within 3 minutes of show starting.

… is she not wearing a blouse????

ok no i see flashes of it.

lmao this pettyass child, threatening to go to a different continent, just so he can get chain ki neend.

why is she in such a panicccccc coz she can’t find yash??? aadmi hai, billi toh nahi, jo darwaaza khula chod diya toh kho jaayega.

god what a motley crew of nonsense naukar??

ok fwding this stupid comedy bit about her “art”

lo aa gaaya gareebon ka varun dhawan.

actually he looks like lovechild of varun dhawan and vatsal sheth. and naman shaw. (remember him???) or something.

here this actual man child is still sulking. now over toothpaste or some shit.

wow his mom just sauntered right into the loo. like, do ppl in tellywood just not have any issues with walking into the loo when someone else is there or what? i’d scream the fucking house down.

great he forgot her bday. idiot.

oh he’s arnav singh raizada type - making a habit of forgetting every year. baaad husband! bad!

the dubbing of this ep is realllly off and it’s bothering me.

he filmyyyy. lol. i like.

ooooooh. diaryyyyyyyyy. this is gonna come in play laterrrrrrr.

“bachpan se teri diary dekhta aa raha hoon”

oh ho, they’re bachpan ke saathi and all that. interesting.

damn girl, loook guiltierrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

also, writing your secrets in a diary is the dumbest shit ever? like, why would you leave a paper trail, so easy to access? its 2018, put it on a private blog or some shit.

ok he didn’t read it. but he’s gonna. you just wait, he gonna read that thing before her body goes cold.

pooja is a scorpio forsho. hella relate to her secretive, none-of-your-damn-business ways.

oh greatttttttttt, he’s another omkara singh oberoi with the whole I HATE LIES bs

god, this woman is still hung up on her bhaddaaaa sa sculpture thing.

lol her hubs is like plz, no more. lord give the spouses of “artists” patience, coz honestly, they’re tiresome af.

he’s also an aap hum dude. i think i like aditya’s way of talking better.

yeah that i love you of his rang realllllllllllll hollow.

oh ho ho. zoya here is stealing tricks from the shivaay singh oberoi book of romance, holi chapter.

“zoya mere kapde gande ho jayenge.” “toh phir utaar dijiyega.”

OH SNAAAAAAAAAAAAP I LIKEEEEEEEEEE.

damn, she just insinuated getting dirrrrrty and then cleaning up together later.

YEAH GIRL. BE SEX POSITIVE AND TAP THAT BOOTY.

i mean, i’d rather you tap that other one’s fine booty, but abhi ke liye yeh bhi chalega.

smartphones are a curse upon modern day relationships.

… bro you’re indian. you don’t get dubai visa that easily in spur of moment. you gotta apply for that shit in advance. go to qatar. visa on arrival for indians these days.

oh that was HER mom, not his???? that makes the bathroom intrusion even weirder and creepier. like damn saasumaa, boundaries.

LMAO HE CUTE AF

oh ho, hint of financial issues. he borrows money from her? she’s the richer one? interestinggggg.

she’s an artist too? what exhibition???

god he’s sooooooooo cute. also their little head tilt thing was adorbs. i def like these two as a couple better.

why is she so uncomfortableeeee with him? this is not the face you make when a husband this hot is attempting to feel ya up. girl you shady affff.

yuppppppp she def has some resentment at him not growing tf up.

ooooooooh "mujhse zyaada tumhe koi pyaar nahi karega!!!!" and all. and pooja seems hella uncomfy. which is fair. these kinda statements are really not as romantic as they’re supposed to seem. they’re more a statement of ownership than love.

at this point i gotta say, i relate with pooja the most in this show so far, and i’m hella sad she gonna be dead soon.

zoya, i get your disappointment and all, but you clingy and whinyyyy af girl.

why is he shaving out in the open? do you ppl not have a bathroom?

gareebon ka varun dhawan thinks being a good husband is listening to wife complain about the naukar. cool. cool cool cool. i hate brown dudes.

gift!

damn girl, calm down. it’s a ring. not cash. i always prefer cash.

oh ho wrong size. pooja size? huhuhuhuhu.

LMAO HE’S SO UNCOMFORTABLE. YOU SHADY FUCK.

damn adi-pooja’s house is huuuuge af. like, they’re not oberoi rich, but definitely hellla fucking rich.

omnious kadamon ka sound. tension-inducing elderly male figure is making entry. is he dad or sasur????

oh this guy. shahid kapoor ka ex step-dad.

dad has Opinions™ on the commute issues of younger couple.

ok mr. hooda. HIS dad.

also, wow. another omkara callback. daddy issues and calling father mr. [surname]

wow, i clearly have “a type” when it comes to tellywood dudes, don’t i????

his mom looks just about as young as his wife, the fuck. like, at most she looks 5 years older than him.

aaaand gareebon ka varun dhawan is offffffff. never to be seen alive again, i presume.

god she clingyyyyyyy af. i don’t really like her character so far.

mmmmm hmmmmmm. love me a man in uniform.

ok he seems to be treating the plane’s PA system like some kinda radio station for himself. nope.

yeah, these fake flying scenes are weird and corny af. fwding.

ok he’s gonna go to mussoorie. because Reasons.

love zoya’s mom for promoting healthy body image. you go mom. i like you.

dad has judgy face af.

lol dadddddd hates yash and thinks he stoopid.

“aapki subhaanAllah pottery.” snort.

lol, i like the sister. she’s so fucking done with her dad’s 5 saal puraana dukhda. get over it already, dad.

dad says issue is not communal. meaning he really knows that yash is shadyyyyyyyy af.

LMAO MAN WHY AND HOW ARE DESI DADS SUCH FUCKING EXPERTS AT DESTROYING YOU WITH THE FEWEST WORDS POSSIBLE

hmmmm hint of some financial issues here also.

damn, the dad really hates yash. what does he know about him that we don’t!?!?!?! SPILL ABBU! SPILL!

ok yup the siddiquis are rich af. driver badi gaadi and all.

oooooh serendipitous meeting time.

the push up level on her bra is kinda ridic. her boobs are practically up in her nostrils.

does every art shop in the world have this obligatory 3D buddha thingy or what????

ok what is this 5 minute waste on them wandering this fucking shop fwd fwd fwd 

oh it’s pooja’s favt song too?

aaaaaaand they both picked it up.

damn boy. you married. stop giving random hottie in the local archies’ heart eyes.

lmaoooooo pack kar dijiye plz and resulting apology.

snort us par in janaaab ka bhi moohtod jawab.

lel. beautiful idiots.

lmao i appreciate his efforts.

“yeh bus ki seat hai kya jispe rumaal phenk di toh seat aapki?” “dekhiye, hum bus mein travel hi nahi karte, toh humein kaise pata hoga???”

lolololol. what logic.

arre waaaaaah. valiant effort by aditya, but zoya knows charlie uncle (and whoever jenny is) and has capitalized on that.

LMAO I LOVE HE’S SPEAKING TO CHARLIE UNCLE AS IF HE KNOWS HIM SINCE FOREVER.

damnnnnnnnn the sexual tension.

LOLOLOL WHICH IS NOW JUST REGULAR TENSION COZ HE THREW MONEY AT HER AND TOOK OFF WITH THE THING. CHOR KAHINKA.

they’re legit running all over the damn city. lord above.

what stamina these two have. jfc.

lol urdu lesson in the middle of conflict.

what’s with gulaal phenking?

oh, just distraction technique.

oh no. phone call time. oh no oh no oh no. didn’t think it would come within this ep itself.

oh yikes car ki kaaafi buriiiiiiii haaalat.

ok fuck anything else, look at this man’s cheekbones. they can cut glass. how unfair. i want. both the man and his cheekbones.

also, this guy has zero questions on why she’s being found dead in mussoorie when she said she was going to chennai? two completely different directions my man. thought you were a pilot and supposed to know where the cities are????

oh shit, gareebon ka varun dhawan DEDDDDDDDDDD.

i mean, i knew it was coming, idk why i’m so shocked.

WHY LORD WHY IS POOJA DEAD TOO? I LIKED HER THE BEST SO FARRRRRRRRR.

aaah man, their grief is hard to watch.

aaaaaaaand

lel his instant face change like BITCH WHAT WERE YOU UP TOOOOOOOO

damn aditya, you reaaaaaaaaallll quick. you just went from shock to anger stage of grief in like under 10 seconds.

even zoya be like what this dude’s deal????? at first, and then she noticed the handssssssss.

ah man my heart is breaking for her. she seems so shockeddddd and brokennnn.

notice contrast in emotions and expressions:

ok BIGGEST QUESTION: how are yash/pooja are still holding hands? like, the car fell into the khaaai, and they most probably died on impact. how the fuck did you extract bodies out of the car like THAT? (or were they pulled out alive and then held hands and proceeded to die?) EXPLAIN TO ME, SHOW. 10 points, show your work. 

oh fuck lots happening in the next ep too, from slapping to angsty grabbing to almost killing to life saving. damn. is this really a one hour show daily????? dude imma be fucking exhausted.

[ghostliied]

also just for the shits and giggles of rai and mimi meeting outside of pokeverse, rai/mimi too

( ✦ ✦ — send ships ; accepting ✦ ✦ ✦ ) | Mobile | out of pokeverseNote:HHHHHHH jlahf I need to make a side blog for outside of pokeverse cause Mimi is becoming to be more than jsut a Poke OC THANKs @stcrmlight

General:

Rate the Ship -  Awful | Ew | No pics pls | I’m not comfortable | Alright | I like it! | Got Pics? | Let’s do it! | Why is this not getting more attention?! | The OTP to rule all other OTPs

How long will they last? - honestly though. A very long time.. Granted he’s a tsun. but.. mimi is such a cute and doesn’t realise half the time.

How quickly did/will they fall in love? - It takes a while for things to click for her and fall for him, but he probably falls almost instantly for her (and he doesn’t even know it). When he finally admits to her about it, that’s when something sparks for her and she feels just the same.

How was their first kiss? - two scenarios. Option 1: She’s probably saying something that seems irrelevant to Rai and he’s just staring at her not really paying attention and then quite suddenly he would pull at her and kiss her. and its one of those long kisses of him just wanting to kiss her and she’s just like !!!! but doesn’t pull away and finally she just loosens up and kisses him back. Option 2: He’s being tsun as per usual and tries to ignore her. like his head is turned away and he doesn’t want to listen to him and then she just decided, fine, and grabs his face and kisses him quite passionately too. since he wont bother to pay attention to her but it’s an attempt to throw him off guard, it probably works though and he doesn’t know how to react he can’t even loosen up to kiss her back but she pulls away and is just like “Do I have your attention now?”

Wedding:

Who proposed? - Rai.

Who is the best man/men? - Um… get back to me for this. cause I dont know.

Who is the bride’s maid(s)? - See the above. but to be QUITE HONEST. the chances of them eloping are quite high cause of Rai and she’s just like this is fine.

Who did the most planning? - well if they elope, that was just kinda lets do it. no planning needed. but otherwise, probably somebody who is close to Rai – if Rai has anybody. If not, Mimi would know a person or two. The people she works for at the flower shop also do weddings so them probably if nobody else.

Who stressed the most? - Neither tbh. Though maybe Rai cause there’s a part of him that is afraid but eh? Mimi isn’t stressed.

How fancy was the ceremony? - LEL what wedding? no but if they had one.Back of a pickup truck | 2 | 3 | 4 | Normal Church Wedding | 6 | 7 | 8 | 9 | Kate and William wish they were this big.

Who was specifically not invited to the wedding? - nOBODY. jk, their parents without a doubt would not be invited

Sex:

Who is on top? -Rai? Maybe? IDK? Mimi would probably help him lead though so maybe both idk.

Who is the one to instigate things? maybe Mimi if she notices that Rai is holding back and doesn’t want to admit to wanting it. So like at first Mimi would, again, guide him and show him.

How healthy is their sex life? who knows- Barely touch themselves let alone each other | 2 | 3 | 4 | Once a couple weeks, nothing overboard | 6 | 7 | 8 | 9 | They are humping each other on the couch right now

How kinky are they? Probably neither but..Straight missionary with the lights off | 2 | 3 | 4 | Might try some butt stuff and toys | 6 | 7 | 8 | 9 | Don’t go into the sex dungeon without a horse’s head

How long do they normally last? again, mimi would last a while. but idk about Rai.

Do they make sure each person gets an equal amount of orgasms? Mimi would probably make sure he’s just happy though. IDK if Rai would feel the same.

How rough are they in bed? lolSofter than a butterfly on the back of a bunny | 2 | 3 | 4 | The bed’s shaking and squeaking every time | 6 | 7 | 8 | 9 | Their dirty talk is so vulgar it’d make Dwayne Johnson blush. Also, the wall’s so weak it could collapse the next time they do it.

How much cuddling/snuggling do they do? - No touching after sex | 2 | 3 | 4 | A little spooning at night, or on the couch, but not in public | 6 | 7 | 8 | 9 | They snuggle and kiss more often than a teen couple on their fifth date to a pillow factory.

Children:

How many children will they have naturally? - um.. ghost child and thunder bird.. :thinking: can they? 1 if possible but its pretty damn hard.

How many children will they adopt? - Honestly. They probably wouldn’t… specially if mimi knew about Rai’s backstory, she’d be afraid of disappointment.

Who gets stuck with the most diapers? - Mimi

Who is the stricter parent? - maybe Rai? IDK??

Who stops the kid(s) from doing dangerous stunts after school? - Mimi

Who remembers to pack the lunch(es)? - Rai

Who is the more loved parent? - they are loved equally

Who is more likely to attend the PTA meetings? Rai 

Who cried the most at graduation? - Mimi? maybe??

Who is more likely to bail the child(ren) out of trouble with the law? - Rai.

Cooking:

Who does the most cooking? - um. Mimi cooks the best but she’s always not cooking cause she’s kinda tired. Rai is okay with it but he’s also very messy. If anything, they’d probably do it together. But Rai would make Mimi not do the work and just have her tell him what to do.

Who is the most picky in their food choice? - Rai probably.

Who does the grocery shopping? - Mimi.

How often do they bake desserts? - Not often. Mimi would bake them though, and always to surprise Rai. of if she’s indulging herself.

Are they more of a meat lover or a salad eater? - um??? who knows?? Mimi likes salads. and Rai is just like *cornflakes please*

Who is more likely to surprise the other(s) with an anniversary dinner? - Mimi.

Who is more likely to suggest going out? - Mimi.

Who is more likely to burn the house down accidentally while cooking? - Rai maybe.

Chores:

Who cleans the room? - Mimi

Who is really against chores? - Rai

Who cleans up after the pets? - Mimi

Who is more likely to sweep everything under the rug? - Rai

Who stresses the most when guests are coming over? - Rai probably. But Mimi doesn’t like people over anyway.

Who found a dollar between the couch cushions while cleaning? - dollar? more like Mimi would find random objects from Rai’s little projects. But it’s mimi. and again not a dollar but she’d always give it to Rai for his little stash so he can make something with it.

Misc:

Who takes the longer showers/baths? - Mimi. 

Who takes the dog out for a walk? - both tbh. it’s like quality time with him.

How often do they decorate the room/house for the holidays? - mimi would want to. but they probably don’t decorate often.

What are their goals for the relationship? - fslhsfd IDK… tbh… Probably mimi would want him to open up a little more. She probably wants him to be honest and more accepting of what he feels but she would never want to force him to be anything he doesn’t want to be. for herself though, she makes it a point to like TRY to pay attention more and not be oblivious. she’s quite good at paying attention with others but its more cause she wants to take care of them.  though with Rai its more of a I want to know what you want and I want to know what I want so we can be happy together.

Who is most likely to sleep till noon? - both. Mimi has chronic pain so she’s always tired and with Rai, he helps her sleep by like… so... they would both sleep until noon. unless rai wakes up first, but if he wakes up, so does she. What’s funny though is that if she wakes up first, he’ll still sleep. wHOOPS.

Who plays the most pranks? - um... Rai? most likely? 

[kakihoden]

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1. What kind of food can’t you stand?: FISH, especially Fried Tilapia. I dunno. I loved fish as a kid, but now just the smell of it makes my stomach churn. Oh, and broccoli. GDI the first time I tasted it was traumatic :’D

2. If you could choose one minor inconvenience to never have to deal with again, what would you pick?: losing my pencils  -- for a person who draws often losing these babies is kinda ironic, isn’t it?

3. Have you got any useless talents?: Uhm.... I can sleep anywhere. LOL

4. If you could be really really good at one thing, what would it be?: drawing.it’s literally the oldest hobby i have so :/

5. Name a few people you think are extremely good-looking: real people?! okay, dumb question. i kinda view people’s faces as equal, but there are particular people who stand out.  i love looking at Eva Green and Angelina Danilova. my girl crushes :v

6. What was your favorite way to pass the time as a kid?: doodle doodle on the wall; wait for my mama’s angry call :’D

7. What is something you’re proud of?: uhm... I dunno. I don’t dwell much on myself on a positive light, so I haven’t really thought of the things I should be proud of. Unless it means something else? IDK lels

8. What’s one character flaw in people that you just can’t tolerate?: being self-righteous, or being too self-important. I tend to act cold towards people like these cuz duuuuuhhhh. I’d rather treat you like fart than say mean things cuz people like these aren’t really worth getting work up over.

9. Do you consider yourself to be more of a leader or a follower?: Back when I was a youthful optimistic fellow, I have, indeed proven myself able to be a leader, but now I just wanna be a follower. Energy-saving mode on unnecessary things :D

10. What kind of student are/were you?: When I was in high school, I was the overrated student. And it sucked because teachers placed high expectations against my will when in fact I am the lazy student who relies on stock knowledge to get through school life :v

11. Butterfly effect question! Has there ever been a seemingly minor decision you’ve made (at the time) that ended up having a profound influence on your life?:Yes.*blushes*

12. Name your most irrational fear/aversion: I used to run away at the speed of light at the sight of anything worm-like. >___<. I once accidentally touched a worm and it felt cold and slimy it was disgusting I literally threw a fit (LOL), but now I can tolerate them. Just... stay away within a one-meter radius D:

13. Are there any fictional characters you find especially relatable?: a looottt. 

14. If you drink, what kind of drunk are you? Alternatively, what sort of person are you at parties?: I don’t drink alcoholic beverages to the point where I get wasted. But let me tell you a story: when I was a kid, Mom gave me a quarter kilo of grapes. I finished it in one sitting, but I got drunk so I hit my head on the door knob when I tried to stand up. I wonder what kind of drunk I am now? AT PARTIES? NOOO... I just stay at corners and try to avoid having to party. It’s not the party that’s bad, it’s the socializing. :’D

15. Do you fall in love easily? Or does it usually take a long time for you to trust someone?: I fall in love with 2d men easily. And yes, it takes quite some time for me to trust someone nowadays, cuz I learned my lesson the hard way.

16. Would you rather have one close friend or 100 casual friends?: just one close friend is enough. I get tired of people quite easily.

17. Do you consider yourself to be more of a slob or a neat-freak?: *glances around my work area* Yep. I’m a slob alright. But that’s only when I’m too busy on something. Otherwise, you’ll often see me arranging my stuff here and there.

18. Describe a place (imaginary or real) that you would find incredibly cozy: a view of the sunset in a large window from a high place. and where a contrast of temperature is at its best <3

19. Do you have kids? If not, do you want them someday?: I’m not that fond of kids because the kids in my neighborhood are brutal. They call me pancit canton (instant noodle) because of my  hair :’’’’’’’’’D (I’m a 23-year-old bullied by 5-year-old kids)

20. What was your favorite book as a child?: I didn’t like reading, believe me. I learned to read quickly because I wanted to get away from books as fast as possible. LOL

21. Name one thing you just don’t get what all the hype is about: uhm... mobile legends and despacito :x srsly what are those 

22. Name one thing that you think is tragically underrated: what is. IDK...  ಠ_ರೃ

23. If you had to be glued to a person for a month, real or fictional (who you have never met), who would you choose?: I’d be with Hitsugaya Toushiro! (then will secretly glue us together again before one month ends LOLOLOLOL) Taichou! <3

24. What’s something you’d like the chance to do someday?: I want to travel a lot to old places. Ah... it’s a life-long dream :3

25. Do you typically speak your mind when you have a controversial opinion? Or do generally prefer to not rock the boat?: I’m a peace-loving person, and I’m weak at arguments so I keep my mouth shut and let my brain become noisy until my thoughts settle down instead of speaking up. 

26. What’s the dumbest fad you’ve been caught up in?: I live in a cave -- what even is the latest fad today

27. What’s something you thought was cool as a kid/adolescent, but now cringe at yourself for?:  I was low-key emo back then but it only manifested in my music preference because I was keeping up a good school image. Now when I look back at that “shiny and brilliant student” facade I wanted to smack my younger self in the head (btw, my music preference never changed). 

28. What’s a trait you consider to be very admirable?: Bravery. It can take you far if you have it. I admire brave people.

29. Is there a particular kind of item people always tend to give you as gifts? (For instance, people always get you things with ducks on them because you like ducks, etc.): I don’t receive gifts anymore (too bad, will you give me a gift? XD) but my godmother often gave me dresses and clothes, and blue items cuz she knew blue was my favorite :3

30. Do you speak multiple languages? Which ones?: I speak Filipino, English and not that fluent at Japanese (and currently taking a crash course at Bahasa Indonesia)

31. Would you rather live in the big city or the countryside?: I’d choose countryside in a heartbeat!

32. Has there ever been something you were certain you’d hate, but ended up loving?: none in particular. 

33. Do you mind being the center of attention, or do you prefer the spotlight to be on someone else?: I do not like too much attention. I do appreciate it when someone notices me but if I get too much of that, it wears me out.

34. Favorite holiday?: Christmas!

35. Are you a more go-with-the-flow type of person, or do you need to have things planned meticulously?:  there are days when I just go with the flow, but when the situation calls for it, I spend a night planning my days, especially trips. Yup.

36. Is there something you loved so much you wish you could forget it and experience it all over again? (A tv show, book, series–anything.): Final Fantasy Advent Children. I’d love to experience that doki-doki when I see Cloud in action <3 and my nightly walks back at the province. The moon-lit road home, the fireflies, the silence, the nature -- I’d love to go back there and spend a good vacation. Plus the residents are really friendly

37. What hobbies do you have?: Drawing, procrastinating, sleeping, procrastinating, reading manga, and did I mention procrastinating?

38. If you could have a superpower, but it was only mildly useful, what ability would you want to have?: what even -- then it’s not called superpower anymore, but rather just “power” LOLOLOL. I wish I could shut down my nose when someone farts XD

39. Something people are always surprised to learn about you: that I’m not actually intimidating and that I am indeed Filipina. 

40. Something that took you way too long to figure out: how to answer this. also, still trying to figure out how I’ll dissect my building. -_-

41. Worst injury you’ve had?: I fell down the stairs when I was a kid and it damaged my knees. Now both knees hurt during the cold season.

42. Any morbid fascinations?: I like drawing gore?

43. Describe your sense of humor: dark! as a result of my depression, my jokes tend to be categorized as black comedy LOL. Also perv. :v

44. If you had to be born in another era/place, which would you choose? I wish I was born in Japan, or renaissance England (^◇^；)

45. Something you are irredeemably bad at: time management (/ω＼)

46. Something that sucked but you’re glad you went through: College. Why the hell did I have to pick Architecture major of all things? But I learned a few things so okay.

47. Would you rather have a really godawful ugly tattoo in a place that is only slightly inconvenient to conceal with clothing (upper arm, thigh, etc.), or the coolest, most beautiful tattoo ever in the middle of your face? (Neither tattoo can be removed or concealed with makeup, and the ugly tattoo will deeply offend anyone who sees it.): ugly tattoo. I don’t like having stuff on my face

48. Are you more of an optimist or a pessimist?: I’m a pessimist irl. I’m actually a depressing human being hiding behind my drawings online ﾟ.+(〃ﾉωﾉ)ﾟ.+°

49. What would be the most flattering compliment someone could give you?: that I’ve inspired them. Ah truly a ray of light in this dark depressing life of mine (￣∇￣) .+°

50. Something you feel people often misunderstand about you: my silence. me being silent to them often means I’m mad, or brooding, or being a bitch. LOL NO. that’s just my face ᕕ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)ᕗ

tagging! @emigotchi @confused-tofu @rimalupin @arimii @pumpkingamelodge @spyroeden @midnightuglystepsister @midnightcindy @kseifert @oh-my-otome and you!

[yuuoni]

do all the nsfw ones r comfortable with!!!!

 i knew this was coming but i’m still not prepared 

also the formatting kept fucking up w these???? fuck this hellsite but srry for the awkward spacing 

anyways buckle up gingin THIS IS LONG LOL

skipping all the sex related ones bc i’m still rocking the v-card 

1. Are looks important in a relationship?

stuff like basic hygeine i think so

2. Are relationships ever worth it?

i would like to think so!

4. Are you in a relationship?

not atm

5. Are you in love?

platonically yes! romantically not sure. i think i’m too young for that LOL

6. Are you single this year?

isn’t this the same q as #4

7. Can you commit to one person?

i’m non-monogamous so not really?? but i have done it several times in the past

8. Describe your crush

this really isn’t a crush but someone i’ve been thinking about lately has a great sense of humor and a really pretty laugh

9. Describe your perfect mate

someone who pushes me to be better while understanding my flaws. good sense of cheeky humor, can deal with my weird family lel 

10. Do you believe in love at first sight?

no, but i believe that physical attraction on first sight is a thing

11. Do you ever want to get married?

maybe, i think more towards the side of yes

12. Do you forgive betrayal?

i do with a bit of time

13. Do you get jealous easily?

initially yes, but i usually logic my feelings out

14. Do you have a crush on anyone?

i don’t think full fledged crushes, just some romantically-inclined thoughts i’ve put on the backburner for a while. (does this make me sound edgy??? i think it does oh boy)

15. Do you have any piercings?

just my lobes! i want MORE tho

16. Do you have any tattoos?

no but i also want one 

17. Do you like kissing in public?

tbh i don’t even like cuddling in public

20. Do you shower every day?

almost every day, sometimes i’ll skip if i haven’t like really moved LOL

21. Do you think someone has feelings for you?

yeah ik they do

22. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?

probably not

23. Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months and not cheat?

i’ve never cheated in any of the relationships i’ve been in ouob

24. Do you think you’ll be married in 5 years?

no lol i’ll be like 24

25. Do you want to be in a relationship this year?

honestly i just got out of a very fufilling and long relationship so idk? 

26. Has anyone told you they don’t want to ever lose you?

lol ya

27. Has someone ever written a song or poem for you?

ya

28. Have you ever been cheated on?

uhhhhh kind of? it was weird

29. Have you ever cheated on someone?

no das not right

30. Have you ever considered plastic surgery? If so, what would you change about your body?

i have, mostly just to get rid of a bit of a bump on my nose

31. Have you ever cried over a guy/girl?

yes and it was 100% not worth it

32. Have you ever experienced unrequited love?

no under this wording, however if this was phrased as unrequited crushes then yes. i think love develops out of initial attraction in a relationship. 

35. Have you ever kissed someone older than you?

no

36. Have you ever liked one of your best friends?

real talk there’s been quite a few best friends that i’ve been a little attracted to at some point, kind of just happens  

37. Have you ever liked someone who your friends hated?

i don’t think so?

38. Have you ever liked someone you didn’t expect to?

no

39. Have you ever wanted someone you couldn’t have?

yes, very much so LOL

40. Have you ever written a song or poem for someone?

ya

42. How long can you just kiss until your hands start to wander?

wouldn’t know tbh

43. How long was your longest relationship?

a year and a half 

44. How many boyfriends/girlfriends have you had?

3

45. How many people did you kiss in 2012/2013?

none

47. How old are you?

19! 

48. If the person you like says they like someone else, what would you say?

fuckkkkk this has happened before but i’m supportive! like i understand-- sometimes shit doesn’t work out and it sucks but you learn to move on and be okay :D  

49. If you have a boyfriend/girlfriend, what is your favorite thing about him/her?

n/a atm

50. If your first true love knocked on your door with apology and presents, would you accept?

uhhh i’d probably be the one  doing the apologizing tbh

51. Is there a boy/girl who you would do absolutely everything for?

ya and they’re my kickass friends B) ride n die for em

53. Is there someone mad because you’re dating/talking to the person you are?

uhhh i don’t think like mad? just confused bc it’s a weird situation

54. Is there someone you will never forget?

this is a vague question????? i mean there’s definitely a lot of people who have left lasting impressions on my life like teachers n family

56. State 8 facts about your body

i have an itty bitty scar on my left hand

my pinkies make cracking noises if i bend them quickly

i can spread my toes! apparently this is genetic

i have fucking tiny ass hands

sometimes my eyelids are uneven

i’m super nearsighted :(

from certain angles i have cankles?? i think

i’ve lost 5 pounds in the last month! #getfit

57. Things you want to say to an ex

this is 2 personal 4 tumbles srry my dudes

58. What are five ways to win your heart?

small gestures

friendly teasing/inside jokes

showing genuine interest in things that i like?? like sometimes i get too into explaining things i enjoy and ik it can be a bit annoying aha, there’s this and just having good conversations that aren’t just small talk

being good to ur friends!

showing compassion 

60. What is the biggest age difference between you and any of your partners?

i think the largest age difference i’ve ever had was 2 years

61. What is the first thing you notice in someone?

uhh besides like face probably their voice and sense of humor

63. What is your definition of “having sex”?

getting nekkid w some Feelings involved

64. What is your definition of cheating?

i think physical cheating is pretty clear cut but emotional cheating is a lot trickier, but definitely happens

67. What is your idea of the perfect date?

italreadyhappenedtbh

68. What is your sexual orientation?

i’m still figuring it out but i think the things that i maybe got down are that i’m most likely polyamorous, if not treasuring the ability to have several very close/intimate bonds at once. also i’m pan :D 

69. What turns you off?

bad breath LOL

74. What’s the most superficial characteristic you look for?

cheekbones probably

75. What’s the sweetest thing anyone’s ever done for you?

helped my mom carry some stuff for her since she’s a bit older now :”)

77. What’s your opinion on age differences in relationships?

uhh you know i don’t like to judge but if it seems like the older one is abusing the fact that they are older to hold advantages over the younger person in the relationship then that’s pretty sketchy. for me personally i would only go 2-3 years older and 2 years younger

80. When was the last time you told someone you loved them?

yesterday! to one of my friends : D

82. Who is the last person you hugged?

my mom :”)

85. Would you ever date someone off of the Internet?

ya i’ve done it before

[rorahkeepgoing]

Mates relationship *trying to not becoming it a shipping post.... FUCK!*

Okaaaaaaaaaay, what the hell did i just write?!!!! this is not what i wanted to write ISTG (kind of)...  never mind. For whatever developing between the characters  and my cross is cos my analysis on the characters and the interactions in the gameplay(of course it's subjective, i can't avoid it). I always like to question every word said by the charas, and do an inspection about the interaction so: this is what came out. 

Yelv is a good character and i love to see yelv/cross interactions (andiwillendupshippingitifthecharactersfeelsnaturaland”true”tothecanon/notjustforyelv/4everypartymembertoo). 

I rly question the ppl who said that the characters on X are worst than the xcx charas cos lack of character developing and poor personalities... PFFFF LIES!!!!, all of them develop in a subtle eye away from the main plot, just look carefully and pay attention adding a little brain is enough, they all are great (i can’t even say which one is the weakest character there). 

Want to do the same with other important members (just dk what will be next....suggestions?... anyone?..lel i know) and it will not be as corny/drama/issues as this for sure, adding little funny HC  (which couldn't do here cuz lost the control of what I was typing...istg) Also idk how to add some external crosses since all of them are the same and this HC comes from my gameplay... HOW?!.

Their first meeting was in NLA, Natasha had been allowed to take her first walk through the city freely and her first intention was to talk to as many people as possible to gather information. It was then, in one of the narrow alleys on the commercial district she ran into that rather grumpy man who immediately jumped aggressively trying to make her leave. Natasha, a bit perplexed, tried to talk to this man again without any success. It was the first time someone had been unkind in what she had been treading on these new lands, H.B. wasn't a thing yet. Minutes later, marked the spot on her communicator as: "asshole here, avoid the place"

It was a wrong foot starter, (after accepting the affinity mission) Yelv asked her to perform some tasks  to prove if it was really true that, between mouths go round about the new survivor. They said she was pretty and qualified, taken in by the beautiful commander Elma, his former trainer in the reclaimers division. If she was taken by her, she must be capable of success and maybe she will help him to achieve his goal since no one else wanted to listen or help him, apart from that, lot of them were a bunch of pathetic weaklings. 

In response, she simply ignored him, made excuses at his insistence, and finally aimed him with a weapon to get lost... <<The kitten has claws and he likes it ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)   >>

We all know that story and the rest of it. Natasha accepted it of course, after all: an order/a mission has to been done (robot complex). 

For Yelv, she was bleak, cold like a computer and a bit tasteless. It made him wonder if she was human and despite everything, she seemed like a well-trained puppy who you can give an order and she brings you the world, so he figured it might work anyway while he would keep doing his things at his way.

Perceptions changed a little, right after their first encounter. Natasha found an imprudent hothead guy which didn't measure the size of his tongue nor the limits of his thoughts (and loud, VERY LOUD) also, honest and a good man, he was different... and needed help with his combat methods. On the other side, Yelv found gossip wasn’t wrong, she was capable, quite capable. She was swift and clear, precise, nimble, a bit wild after a while, she banged with the weapons, strong kicks and hits, If the enemy was very large, she'ld easily ride the beast to hit it at key points, also used the environment in her favor and as an extra weapon, she really knows how to move. <<Damn! she was sexy>>.

Yelv had been satisfied, Natasha could definitely help him but they had to get a couple more missions done so she could open up a little more. In fact, was a short time that she had stopped appearing tasteless. Time that gained more and more recognition among BLADE members.

During the course, Natasha began to be bolder with her interactions and behavior in general, even beginning to make small jokes with such a serene countenance causing dismay on him. <<Is she was serious or was teasing him?>>. Anyway, she started to be more friendly and welcomed, while seemed everything that comes out from Yelv mouth made her laugh <<At last someone was laughing at his jokes!>>. 

A good friendship. Natasha always was supportive with him and vice versa, trying to made him progress with his combat skills since he had strength and a lot of potential but wasted cos wasn't focused properly every time, rather he easily get distracted and unnecessary confident that being knocked out was common on him. They worked in complement that made them an unstoppable duo, or at least that was what Yelv said. While she weakened it he gave it the knockout, sometimes was the other way round.

Natasha found on him a great supporter friend, a comrade who during her excursions Yelv was the only one who didn’t contain her or reprimand her for not following the security protocols ( Frye and Mia too but they were different...*also Alexa-skellshead* Mia was good tho) or stoping her to exploring inaccessible and dangerous places; she loves to explore and he likes the risk. She also felt a connection since he was the only one who also suffered from amnesia. So their conversations could open up a little more to just earth memories, people they lost or skells obsessions, they could have much more casual, volatile and more fun conversations .There were few people with whom she could have such conversations, but their common ground made it more pleasant (sometimes the conversation topic was his lost friend but it was fine, as it was interesting * until he was over obsessed* ).

Nat stopped to worrying about recovering her memories, maybe it could carry her to something she didn’t want to remember.... What if she had lost someone too? maybe a lot of loved ones, or maybe no one which it makes it saddest, better to let it like this and enjoy their new home. Yelv was agree, but also told her that somehow not remember those who gave their lives for her was inconsiderate.

It was not a secret that Yelv developed a feeling for her. Well, since the beginning he never stopped to call her hottie/ babe and after a while pard (coming out from the translation pard=Figura=figura mujer= hottie). Lin knew it, Elma knew it, Nagi knew it (when Irina found out, she didn’t get him out of her threats), and many companions who had never imagined working along on occasional missions because of her. Yet Natasha did not seem to notice it and that  was good, because his priority was his lost friend, he didn't wanted to get distracted by love, love was for the weak ones and  if he wanted a lassie, he just take some when he desired and get some fun. But not her, she was his friend and in some way, she resembles him his lost friend because of her kindness, worry and her constant assist in people's problems without  judging them.

The fact that she reminded him his old friend was not good at all either. It also had something bad, that is, his friend was the cool guy with whom all the girls wanted to date, the one with the ease speech and everyone liked him, he was so good that he was his best friend: he who was nothing to his side, damn!, even getting chicks was difficult as hell for him, fighting indigenous was easier than conquer hearts.

 Well that also shared with Natasha who was a gorgeous and intelligent woman with a big heart and now quite recognized among all BLADE, citizens and xenomorphs, more than one did not take their eyes off her (issue that made him even more jealousy and aggressive with the men around her, some women, definians (god, he hates definians!) and suspicious xenomorphs in general). Even so, she was still joining someone like him. All this made him more unsettled: Getting distracted, avoid her, walking close to her because jealousy protective, belligerent and more obsessive about finding his friend. Whatever to put all his thoughts of her away and definitely wasn't going to admit his kind of crush on her, although it didn't stop him to strutting like a peacock in front of her, trying to impress her and get some hint that Natasha could showed attraction to him.

You know the rest (so so), their relationship is balanced with good and conflictive moments between them. Neither of them are perfects and the developing of a relationship took too long due to the conflictive, insecure and obsessive guy and the fearful concerned and dreamy gal. The ghost of her past made her feel fearful of get attached to  things, persons to love because having materials and people in her life means that all this can disappear and becoming  her vulnerable: “they can’t take away anything from us if we have nothing”. 

However, following that kind of life also made no sense and by that time Natasha had a large circle of what she could call friends / family. To reach this logic wouldn't take more than it would take the man to admit his feelings and tell her. A big surprise by the people in charge of the artificial intelligence program  since it was not provided, the question was whether this could help or could be harmful.

The fact that Yelv isn't a normal human been only adds a small but surmountable conflict. Natasha is just a similar case on the opposite side of the situation; That is, mechanical engineering and sustainable artificial intelligence was the counterpoint of the induced biogenetic engineering and modeled behavior.

Whether they came to know everything or only one part of it would be another conflict surmountable and material to forge a better relationship. Besides that regaining Natasha's knowledge would aid in the advancement of the manufacture of organic matter and the subtraction of consciences to obtain new organic bodies, or otherwise prosper as half machines.

Their relationship developed slowly (but save). Lot of time to become a couple and even kisses were a thing who also took a  time(due to the nervousness/ distraction of his and a distracted/trolling Nat, it also depends on how was the declaration.... which has infinite possibilities *notgonnawritteaboutit...or...amI?NO!*), another one for the next step and more for the next steps. Patience wasn't Yelv's fort and yet he survived that way controlling all the mess of a person he was because he focused all his energies and Natasha kept him at bay.   He also knew that sometimes she had crazy ideas ( with a mind out of her), it was better not to lead her that way cos some times it was creepy. 

It is possible to say that in the case of Roxanne’s arise, it would generate tension since obviously Yelv was a primitive guy with a poor education type that doesn't come improving the human species (purpose of their creation) or nothing important to contributing (in Rox's point of view), also he wasn’t a human!. ~~~~~~~~~~~~

Done (?) I had to stop. Also gonna add these sketches here... whynot?!.

[vaynes]

prime numbers if thats not too much!! :3c

2: Do you ever get “good morning” texts from anyone?

no :(

3: If your significant other smoked pot, would you care?

yes - prob wouldn’t be dating them if they did

5: What were you doing at 11PM last night?

playing overwatch

7: What would you do if you found out you had been cheated on?

cry n break up with them

11: You can only drink ONE liquid for the rest of your life - what is it?

water obv. what kind of q is this lol

13: What time do you go to bed?

around 11

17: Do you hate the person you fell the hardest for?

never really “fell” for anyone lel

19: Is there someone that makes you happy every time you see them?

yes

23: Were you happier four months ago than you are now?

probably

29: Do you have a best friend?

want to say i do but idk if they consider me theirs

31: Who was your last call/text message from?

my mom

37: Do you have any good friends of the opposite sex?

yes

41: Do you think age matters in relationships?

anyone who thinks it doesn’t is delusional

43: How many people have you had real, strong feelings for since high school ended?

still in high school :3c

47: Honestly, what’s on your mind right now?

where the fuck is my ovw duo partner

53: What was the last thing you ate?

rice and eggs

59: When was the last time you took a long drive?

last week

61: Have you ever TPd someone’s house?

nope

67: Do you curse around your parents?

no i’d die

71: Have you ever been dumped?

yes

73: Have you ever casually made out with someone who you weren’t seriously involved with?

no

79: What makes your heart flutter and brings a big cheesy smile to your face?

being complimented

83: Do you miss your last sweetie?

miss them as a friend

89: Do you cook?

i can cook eggs. thats it

97: Are you a tease?

kind of? when i have the chance

101: Hugs or Kisses?

both pls n ty

103: The first thing you notice about the opposite sex?

hair

107: Your last kiss?

never had one :(

109: Have you kissed anyone in the past month?

:(

113: Do you currently have feelings for anyone?

kind of?? maybe? idk

[defini-te]

all of the vaguely nsfw asks?/ >:))

Thank you anon >:’D

1. Are looks important in a relationship? Yes, but not more important than personality. A decent looking guy can become attractive to me, but no amount of personality will make me attracted to someone I can’t find remotely attractive :/2. Are relationships ever worth it? With the right people I believe so3. Are you a virgin? No4. Are you in a relationship? I think so 5. Are you in love? no (not yet I suppose)6. Are you single this year? no lmao7. Can you commit to one person? yeah8. Describe your crush. a human male with arms and legs. And some beautiful eyes. 9. Describe your perfect mate. Someone I can have fun with, trust and be comfortable being myself and honest with. Someone that can help me be a better person but also someone I can help in the same way. Also physically attractive to me and finds me attractive.10. Do you believe in love at first sight? No lmao11. Do you ever want to get married? Sure…no hurry though.12. Do you forgive betrayal? If they’re sincerely sorry, never repeat it and make amends I will. Unless if it’s cheating lmao.13. Do you get jealous easily? Honestly no. I’m pretty reasonable by default.14. Do you have a crush on anyone? Well, yeah.15. Do you have any piercings? Ears only16. Do you have any tattoos? No i’m afraid of pain ._.17. Do you like kissing in public? Yes, provided it’s nothing more than a quick kiss. Forehead and cheek kisses aaaa20. Do you shower every day? yes21. Do you think someone has feelings for you? I would bloody hope so22. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now? neh23. Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months and not cheat? yes wtf24. Do you think you’ll be married in 5 years?  ..no25. Do you want to be in a relationship this year? Well yeah.26. Has anyone told you they don’t want to ever lose you? Yeah. And look what happened lmao woops27. Has someone ever written a song or poem for you? no28. Have you ever been cheated on? Yes.29. Have you ever cheated on someone? No. I’m not a fucking animal.30. Have you ever considered plastic surgery? If so, what would you change about your body? Jawline thinning surgery, or a nose job.31. Have you ever cried over a guy/girl? Yes. Cried once over the shock of being ghosted. Cried many times from an emotionally abusive ex.32. Have you ever experienced unrequited love? No. I’d be on the other end of it more often tbh. I wouldn’t let myself love someone that doesn’t feel the same to me.33. Have you ever had sex with a man? Ye34. Have you ever had sex with a woman? noh35. Have you ever kissed someone older than you? Ye36. Have you ever liked one of your best friends? No37. Have you ever liked someone who your friends hated? Does it count if my friends eventually started hating him?38. Have you ever liked someone you didn’t expect to? Yes. Didn’t expect to like someone with mental illness and a different socioeconomic class than me. Also didn’t expect to like a charming salesman that approached me either. WOOPS.39. Have you ever wanted someone you couldn’t have? No40. Have you ever written a song or poem for someone? I’m about as artistic as a brick wall, so no.41. Have you had sex so far this year? Yes :)42. How long can you just kiss until your hands start to wander? like 3 seconds.43. How long was your longest relationship? 1 year 2 months. Pity it was a toxic one.44. How many boyfriends/girlfriends have you had? 445. How many people did you kiss in 2012/2013? Just 1. Oh the joys of high school infatuation.46. How many times did you have sex last year? many to be honest.47. How old are you? 1948. If the person you like says they like someone else, what would you say? Thought you really seemed to like me. Thanks for being honest about it, bye.49. If you have a boyfriend/girlfriend, what is your favorite thing about him/her? Hard to pin point one thing at this stage. I’d say fun to be around and seems genuine and affectionate.50. If your first true love knocked on your door with apology and presents, would you accept? NO. BYE BITCH. It’s more likely he’d knock on my door with incessant talking and logical fallacies.51. Is there a boy/girl who you would do absolutely everything for? Myself lol52. Is there anyone you’ve given up on? Why? My most recent ex. I’m sure he could have gotten better, but the damage of the past is done. My feelings for him are completely gone to the point where I cannot stand the tiniest sliver of his presence. Therefore, there’s no way I could stay with him and have the patience to wait for him to improve.

That’s just the thing, isn’t it. Our relationship constantly had a power imbalance that would tip from one side to the other, never balancing in the middle.

Another reason I gave up was when I realised we both deserved better, and I couldn’t feel comfortable being honest with him and too used to hiding things and lying to him.53. Is there someone mad because you’re dating/talking to the person you are? Nope54. Is there someone you will never forget? Yeah I think so. Not in a good way.55. Share a relationship story. Uhmm we went from google imaging photos of expensive cars because I didn’t know what a Bugatti was, to scrolling through photos of horses for 5 minutes and making comments on them.56. State 8 facts about your body. I’m 5′2/1.58cm, my second toe is longer than my big toe, I can twitch my ears, I can roll my tongue sideways, I look younger than I am, my hands are always cold, I can place my hands flat on the floor without bending my knees, I have resting bitch face.

57. Things you want to say to an ex. Good luck with life. Don’t talk to me or see what I’m doing with mine.58. What are five ways to win your heart?

1. Make me laugh abruptly and unexpectedly.

2. Listen to what I say and respect my intelligence and agency.

3. inspire me to actually improve in any way.

4. Be attentive and genuinely enjoy spending time with me.

5. Intend to stick with me, and make that obvious to me.

59. What do you look like? (Post a picture!) if you want one that badly pm me or something.60. What is the biggest age difference between you and any of your partners? 7 years 61. What is the first thing you notice in someone? Their general demeanour and how they carry themselves. I would’ve said their looks but I’ve realised I don’t aggressively scope them out first thing due to shyness.62. What is the sexiest thing someone could ever do for/to you? Oh man, I’m not too sure. I’d say a lot of sensual touching would be involved and dirty or sweet talk whispering.63. What is your definition of “having sex”? Bumping your genitals together LMAO64. What is your definition of cheating?

Physical cheating - Any physical contact with sexual intent, including sexting, with someone you’re not in a relationship with, and without their permission.

Emotional cheating - Having romantic feelings or strong attachment for someone you’re not in a relationship with, and not doing anything to control them.65. What is your favourite foreplay routine? Making out, touching, I guess.  Lel.66. What is your favourite roleplay? idk67. What is your idea of the perfect date? I have many. A night in where we watch movies, cuddle and cook something together. Or we go somewhere scenic and watch the sunset/star gaze. 68. What is your sexual orientation? Straight69. What turns you off? Lack of initiative, arrogance, possessiveness, excessive awkwardness, clingyness/neediness, extremely loud voice, sense of entitlement, bad oral hygiene (or hygiene in general), inattentive, very untidy, passive aggressiveness.70. What turns you on? Initiative, respectful, smells nice, sense of humour, consideration, affectionate/sensual, honesty, kindness, appreciative, intelligence.71. What was your kinkiest wet dream? uhm idk.72. What words do you like to hear during sex? henlo u wan sum fuk73. What’s something sweet you’d like someone to do for you? I low-key fantasised about someone buying me a new e-reader. Not because they’re just buying me a new device, but about the sentiment behind it. They’d know how much I enjoyed reading and wish to encourage me to pursue it once more. They’d know that reading off a computer screen saps my concentration and I prefer to find my books electronically and online.

there’s another reason I’d find it particularly touching, and it’s not something I would tell them. My controlling ex didn’t let me read and uninstalled the program I used for reading off MY computer without telling me. So if a better boyfriend did the opposite and encouraged me to read, and wanted to see me enjoy things I’d probably fall in love with him right there.

But this is a tad bit idealistic, so I’m not expecting.

74. What’s the most superficial characteristic you look for? Nice arms? Handsome face? IDK75. What’s the sweetest thing anyone’s ever done for you? Take care of me when I was sick.76. What’s the sweetest thing you’ve ever done for someone? Take care of them when they had a mental breakdown. 77. What’s your opinion on age differences in relationships? If you’re on the same page and can work together, who am I to judge.78. What’s your dirtiest secret? Apparently I’m good at blowjobs o//o Thought I was average at best, i’m still shook.79. When was the last time you felt jealous? Why? When I was with my ex, probably just him hanging around that dumb bitch and trying new things with her. Why did I even put up with that lmao.80. When was the last time you told someone you loved them? I don’t remember.81. Who are five people you find attractive? Me, myself, Moi, I, and shrek.82. Who is the last person you hugged? My mother.83. Who was your first kiss with? With a boy I met off a friend when we were 15. He’s studying dentistry now lmaoo84. Why did your last relationship fail? Controlling behaviour, cheating, isolation, me being sick of his manipulative bullshit and wanting to do normal things without fucking consulting him first. Also I didn’t take initiative or put as much effort because I felt like nothing I’d do would make a difference, and that he’d tell me what to do anyway so why act.85. Would you ever date someone off of the Internet? If I’m able to meet them regularly, yeah why not.

[spanishequestrian]

Rules: Complete the survey & say who tagged you in the beginning. When you’re finished, tag people to do this survey. Have fun and enjoy!

Tagged by the amazing @canis-infernalis

1. Are you named after someone? Yes! My mom named me after a old lady that lived in the same building because she was such a nice and sweet person :)

2. When is the last time you cried? Yesterday LOL I’m a cry baby

3. Do you like your handwriting? Not really, it’s really messy, but I guess it just reflects how messy I am as a person lel

4. What is your favorite lunch meat? Long live the ‘salchichón’

5. Do you have kids? Yes, his name is Campano and he is tol and filthy.

6. If you were another person, would you be friends with you? I GUESS??? Idk, I mean at least I would have someone to go trail riding with

7. Do you use sarcasm? No (LOL)

8. Do you still have your tonsils? Yep, surgeons have never laid theirs hands on me

9. Would you bungee jump? I would shit myself but yes!

10. What is your favorite kind of cereal? The ones filled with somekind of milky cream, it tastes a bit like condensed milk

11. Do you untie your shoes when you take them off?  Fucking never because I never tie them in the first place lel

12. Do you think you’re a strong person? Not at all, but y’know, fake it till you make it

13. What is your favourite ice cream flavor? Chocolate chips cookie dough!

14. What is the first thing you notice about people? Their voice

15. Red or pink? Red

16. What is the least favorite physical thing you like about yourself? My eyes I guess, it’s the only thing I kinda like about myself

17. What color pants and shoes are you wearing now? White and grey, I’m such a colorful person lol

18. What was the last thing you ate? Some peanuts!

19. What are you listening to right now? A gameplay in Youtube

20. If you were a crayon, what colour would you be? The useless white one

21. Favorite smell? The sweet smell of cakes being cooked in the oven, damn

22. Who was the last person you spoke to on the phone? My papi chulo (he was worried about my leg, my dad is so pure)

23. Favorite sport to watch? Dressage, SJ, Soccer, Eventing, Doma vaquera, Basketball, volleyball... Basically anything except tennis lol

24. Hair color? Light brown I guess, it’s darker on the roots

25. Eye color? Greenish blue

26. Do you wear contacts? Yas, they are the love of my life

27. Favorite food to eat? Pasta, Donner Kebab or Pizza. Such healthy, much fit

28. Scary movies or comedy? Comedy, but like the good ones

29. Last movie you watched? The arrival, it has done things to my mind

30. What color of shirt are you wearing? White t-shirt under a blue sweatshirt

31. Summer or winter? Def winter, I would always choose cold over hot. But a brief period of summer is great too.

32. Hugs or kisses? Hugs 

33. What book are you currently reading? None because school makes it imposible to read anything :(

34. Who do you miss right now? Ugh, my friends being happy and themselves and not stressed af

35. What is on your mouse pad? No mouse pad for me, I always use the laptop ‘touch pad’-

36. What is the last TV program you watched? Black mirror, I love that show so much

37. What is the best sound? Horse’s nickering or rain while being by the fire

38. Rolling Stones or The Beatles? Rollings!

39. What is the furthest you have ever traveled? Costa Rica or NY, I think CR is further away

40. Do you have a special talent? Suckin’ at everythin’ I guess

41. Where were you born? Granada!

42. People you expect to participate in

Choosing between the people active in my notes:

@mylittlehony @thegypsycob @blitzkriegloveshock @trash-cactus @lopingcanter and anyone else that want to do it, pls tag me if you do!

[javen-tiger]

I just saw Rouge One again and this time I have THOUGHTS (really really disorganised thoughts)

- First time I saw it I was all why does this man have vaporaters?? he clearly lives on a planet with sufficient water. I’m still confused tbh - obvs they’re there because they’re the universal signifier for Star Wars Farm, but in-universe maybe it’s more efficient to vaporate than to pipe it from somewhere - also I didn’t notice that those patches of green in front of his house were fields the first time I watched it - I wonder what the significance of having the confrontation in the field is?? Is it because the empire callously tramples over Galen’s life, over all he has struggled to create, just as they trample his hardwrought crops? Is it because this is a turning point, a new beginning in the story, just as life springs anew from the earth (from seeds planted before, oooo)?? - overall I really like this biome though. it’s nice. - I really liked how his wife is all ‘fuck you imps’ hell yeah this family is equally passionate about the rebellion, I like that - also Jyn’s stormtrooper toy :) we all need the baddies in our sets :))) - I get that Jyn had to watch to make sure the troopers left & probably couldn’t risk the noise of moving. but hell I would have gone straight down into that thing, FUCK - how did the stormtroopers not notice the rocks had eyes :/ - the rings of the planet at the start of this scene also look super cool. although lmao I didn’t notice the first time I saw it that there was an IMPERIAL SHUTTLE in the frame of the first shot, which made it kinda cool but v/ disorientating w/o anything to latch onto - have I mentioned that Imperial shuttles are fucjing awesome? I love imperial shuttles ok they’re the second best - a fun fact: the second time I wrote ‘shuttle’ I made the typo ‘shittle’ IMPERIAL SHITTLE EVERYONE

- ok I love love love the look of that trading outpost that’s in the rings of somewhere. I love settings that are ‘the rings of ____’ and are literally set on a bunch of rocks that make up the rings of a planet, it always looks really cool. could aslo be like the space version of islands - this time it’s even cooler because it’s two rocks joined together. although idk how that would work. super strong space infrastructure - Male Lead’s accent 👌 - tough desicion making, gotta shoot a dude, nasty, grit

- look, I’m trying to do this in vaguely chronological order but whatever - the first time I saw this I didn’t know Tarkin was CGI (i figured they found a cushing look-alike and gave him prosthetics or smth??) and I did not notice at all that he wasn’t real - this time I did know and yeah, I kinda did notice he was just a little little bit not real and I feel like that probably will/does bother some people. I did find myself devoting some of my attention in those scenes just to the fact that Tarkin was CGI - overall though I DO NOT GIVE A SHIT !!! :))))) - TARKIN IS IN THIS MOVIE and I don’t care if it had to look a weeny bit fake for that to happen. - I don’t really mind being remided of the fact that I’m watching a movie, a product of human effort, so little irrealisms don’t bother me too much tbh - Tarkin!! :))))

- Jedah city is really really beautiful - I didn’t notice the first time at all, but honestly it is so lovely - there’s this one shot where we see for just a second, the city peeking over it’s walls - it’s v/ lovely, like a white pearl within a rugged orange shell - I also love the star destroyer (3rd best spaceship) LOOMING over the entire city. Scale. - Does anyone else notice that most of the Star Wars spaceships are either 1) Fucking huge 2) carry like 10 people max or 3) fighters - where’s the inbetween ?? Star Destroyer and Millenium Falcon what goes between that. - also the Imperial Cargo ships look like turtles :) 🐢 - I love how the Jedi had a whole Kyber temple. Like they could’ve just gone and picked some up for their sabres but NO they must have a ~spiritual journey~ and almost die on fucking Ilum - IS THAT THE GUY WITH THE DEATH SENTENCE IN 12 SYSTEMS!? :D I didn’t even realise the first time - I love fanservice so muchhhhhh - I love that .5 second shot of SPACE MARX - I have a lot of questions about the Whills, specifically Donnie Yen - why hasn’t the empire killed Donnie Yen - HE’S JUST OUT THERE BRAZENLY USING THE FORCE ALL THE TIME WHAT THE FUCK - also did Jyn’s mum give her a Kyber necklace? I didn’t realise the first time that it was the same stuff. - well what’s the symbolism of that then. Donnie Yen said something but I forget what it was. Jyn carries at her breast that same thing which destroys worlds. Which her Father used to design a machine to destroy worlds. hmmm. - duplicity - or smth lel idk - i, for one, support Cyborg’s men violently attacking the Empire’s resource train - maybe don’t do it in such populated areas - ah, but the entire operation never leaves a populated area - tough desicion making, gotta shoot a dude, nasty, grit - to be real though, the first time I saw it I didn’t register the initial line that gave the reasoning for the Star Destroyer (Cyborg’s dudes have been attacking the supply chains or whatever) so when I first saw this I thought it was a bunch of random oppourtunist guys in it for the cash that comes w/ precious Kyber - but then they came arrested Male Lead and Jyn and Donnie Yen and Donnie Yen’s friend - is Donnie Yen’s friend also a whill? does this mean not all whills have the force? is that why the whills are still alive? wouldn’t the empire kill them anyway because they’re reminders of the Jedi? - or does Donnie’s friend have the force and has just lost faith - y'see we don’t know. this is part of a problem I have w/ the film that I’ll talk about at the end - i think i saw at least two (2) girls amongst Cyborg’s people. coulda been more though, I mean, aliens? face coverings? - someone else go have a discourse about how most of Cyborg’s dudes look like the popular conception of a terrorist - though that does change a bit once we get a closeup look at them at their base - I really like the look of the inside of Jedah city - ok, how has the Empire not found and killed Cyborg’s dudes? they live within shouting distance of Jedah city in this really obvious structure carved into the rocks - whatever - there’s a really good shot of a felled and buried Jedi statue earlier on, which is super cool - but also why the fuck are the Jedi buuilding giant statues of themselves aren’t they supposed to be 'austere’ or whatever - they had giant statues of themselves in their own temple so whatever. I guess this is from their other temple, the Kyber temple - I love how a centre of civilisation seems to have sprung up around the Jedi temple, as if they know the Jedi there will keep them safe - but the Jedi are gone and it became their doom that they ever had anything to do with them :))))))) - the effects of that horizon ripping are too damn good - also a robot saying 'there are shit odds’ before a dude trys to fly through a field of rapidly moving rocks? I know this formula 😏 - I take major issue with the Pilot going crazy, being crazy for one scene, and then not being crazy at all afterwards. - narratively it makes no sense to have that plot point in the first place if you aren’t going anywhere with it, and it seems a bit callous for him to just 'get better’

- I love how Tarkin is all 'i’m transferring command to me’ - WHITE IMPERIAL IS IN DANGER OF HIS BOSS TAKING THE CREDIT FOR HIS WORK - the empire is really just any other office workplace :) beaurocracy :) - wasn’t anakin’s dictatorship supposed to get rid of this :) remember that whole arc of clone wars tarkin and anakin spent bonding over a mutual predeliction towards fascism :) - it was a lie anakin :) depose the emperor :) - rule the universe with luke, as father and son :)

- I CAN’T BELEIVE ANAKIN LIVES ON A FUCKING LAVA PLANET IN A LAVA CASTLE WITH A LAVA WATERFALL - fuck will his drama never end - exactly how much of his time does Darth spend in his glorified bacta tank? - that shot where darth vader’s shadow is revealed, swallowing White Imperial with it’s sheer size is mint 👌👌 good film making hot damn 👌👌 establish those power relations nice - DON’T CHOKE ON YOUR ASPIRATIONS - the sickest double pun ever know to man

- soundtrack: there is one theme in the soundtrack that I really like until the next note happens - it’s the beggining and swell of the music when the title comes on - I like it until the next note after the swell, which never does it for me at any point in the film

- I really enjoy the fact that Mon Mothma exists - she is Good - also Bail Organa

- ok so they piss off to the Rainy Planet which I think is a really cool biome. It’s nice, my mum hated it with a passion, we had to drive home in the dark while it was raining :) - I actually kinda love how this entire act of the movie is a colossal clusterfuck - and Male Lead has to not shoot the guy! (ok i don’t really see the entire logic behind kiling him since the Death Star is already finished, but … whatever?) - anyway … tough desicion making, gotta shoot a dude, nasty, grit - why is White Imperial shooting the scientists outside in the rain, like, surely it’s more pleasant inside mate - I really love the massive military mistake that happens. The Rebellion ain’t perfect (tough desicion making, gotta shoot a dude, nasty, grit). - I also like this between Jyn and Male Lead (wherein Male Lead gets some character :)) - before there was some stuff between Cyborg and Jyn about 'the cause’ and Jyn is all 'it’s not a problem if you don’t look up’ which is clearly the Star Wars version of “Those who do not move, do not notice their chains.” which is a Rosa Luxemburg quote (bless Rosa btw) - It’s an understandable position, but a very frustrating one - she says that stuff about having 'the luxury to be political’ which reminds be of ()()()THE PYRAMID OF NEED()()() I was gonna fill this in later but honestly I can’t be bothered, basically it’s the idea that only once you can fulfill your base needs like food and shelter can you even begin to think about other shit - anyway I really like Male Lead’s stuff about 'being in this fight since he was six years old’ and 'you’re not the only one who lost everything, some of us just decided to do something about it’ HELL YEAh fight that evil empire. too right you’re right stop being an apolitcal sook Jyn - what’s Male Lead’s name I feel suddenly fond of him. It’s Cassian, nice. - anyway Jyn takes that to heart, bless her (also motivated by Dad I guess), and delivers her nice 'Rebellions are built on Hope’ bit. Which lmao reminds me of this quote about rebellions being built on despair, actually:

- (look how fucked my dash is i don’t understand) - anyway there’s division in the Rebellion, some of them (the guy from sherlock … anderson?) are scared it’s understandable, it’s good, it’s tough desicion making, gotta shoot a dude, nasty, grit 

- SOME REBELS REBEL and thus begins the third act of the movie - ok, the third act is the best, the absolute best, it’s tense and holds your attention like nothing else and time isn’t real anymore and the first two acts feel like they almost never happened, like they’re some faint background noise - really I think part of that 'faint background noise’ is that the 'tough desicion making, gotta shoot a dude, nasty, grit’ theme about the Rebellion being flawed, just … goes away. besides the initial rebelion of rebels which kicks the action going the theme disappears - maybe it’s there in spirit since it was some tough desicion making, gotta shoot a dude, nasty, grit, that actually kickstarted the act.. idk it couldn’t really be there for all of act 3 to happen properly and act 3 is the best so whatever. I guess maybe it’s also there a bit when Cassian shoots White Imperial . maybe - it’s also really noticable in the bit where Cassian brings some guys over to help that they are all dudes. - Like I give Star Wars a pass on this mostly actually because they gotta maintain continuity with the seventies, it’s actually quite nice how they end up adding in a bunch of lady pilots etc. (esp. since they cut lady pilots from Return of the Jedi :/ thanks 1983) - idk I just … that was my immediate thought, maybe I’m being silly - even though I give Star Wars a pass I also wouldn’t have minded if they did just make half the rebels women, continuity be damned, I don’t mind being reminded that yes, I am watching a movie ( as i mentioned before).

- Scarrif is such a cool environment. Ok I love it. I also love the shield thing!!! - mind, when the rebels were running through the palms all the palm trees were in straight lines … like … did the empire plant them? - did the empire see some scraggly rainforest and say WE MUST BRING ORDER TO THE GALAXY - or is the empire making money off palm oil on the side??

- NOOO BAIL! DON’T GO BACK TO ALDERAAN?? - when did he say stuff about Obi-Wan and Leia? idk if that was before or what but I dug that. - it was probably a bit before when Mon Mothma (best) said 'war is inevatable’ - ok on that note idk what those other systems were thinking … like … are you gonna overthrow the empire peacefully?

- Except the empire ownes their arses  - The Empire: *commits genocide* Anderson: I respectfully disagree with your opinion on Lasats

- anyway, back to rebelling. Jyn’s Imperial disguise is the number one (1) costume the imps have. it is the best uniform. get and maintain that job for that uniform kids. also I wanna know what exactly it is she’s got on her back. - Cassian is v/ scruffy round the face and I’m surprised none of the othter Imps noticed that he was not regulation. I assume that’s not regulation anyway none of the other officers have face hair - I’m surprised noone noticed it was a different Inspector who went in than came out … but … whatever - ON THE TOPIC OF UNIFORMS - THEY STILL HAVE BOMBADIER HATS IN SPACE - i’m fucking laughing - 'I have an inside job pressing the button that makes the death star fire but i still wear this RIDICULOUS HELMET’ - is this one of those stupid military traditions that just keeps going … like … it’d make sense if you were firing artillery outside I guess?? and recieving fire?? but do they not have an alternative uniform for INSIDE JOBS - both the Rebels and the Empire are guilty of this

- Those explosions were cool as - also i’ve seen this meme too many times:

- idk what else to say other than everything looked really cool. like it was fucking awesome and tense, especially when the Mon Calimari dude showed up

- X-Wings are the best thing. I love X-Wings. I used to have this old X-Wing toy from 197-whatever that I played with at Christmas (it was my dad’s really, and up in Brisbane). Fuck I love X-Wings. Best Plane - I would not get in an X-Wing though. If you get hit in space YOU DIE - A PARACHUTE WILL NOT SAVE YOU YOU WILL DIE fuck that noise - in the background you can hear ’..aptain Antillies’ - WEDGE WEDGE WEDGE WEDGE - did you know I have to start watching Rebels again because I heard Wedge is in it? like once? - unless captain Antillies of Leia’s ship isn’t actually the same person as Wedge, which he wouldn’t be because Vader captured that ship - i’m disappointed - is Antillies a common name in this universe? - it’s cool how Red 5 dies. now Luke can join up :) - that;s a fucked up thing to say whhy am i like this - I looked over at my dad during this bit and he had his hands to his face bless him he was havin’ a good time

- I felt sad when Sassbot died. which is remarkable considering - I did not feel that sad when anyone else died - because most the characters that aren’t Jyn and are in the 'gang’ feel v/ flat to me - like we don’t know much about them or why they’re doing this at all. We don’t even know really why the Pilot defected (Jyn’s dad … spoke to him?) and that’s basically his entire character?? Pilot is kinda sweet and earnest and defected. ok… i guess he’s endearing but I don’t really have a sound motivation here to make me attatched to him - Donnie Yen I guess is motivated because The Force. I felt like he was in this movie just so The Force would be in it. I guess Donnie Yen’s friend goes along because Donnie Yen does and they love each other. I’ll grant that friendship was sold super well, but otherwise who/why are they? Donnie was a Whill who still believes in the force, his friend is a bit disillusioned to all that. This is their character. - THey did do Donnie’s death pretty well though, even though I wasn’t that sad about it I guess. He puts total faith in the Force and if the Force wants him to pull that lever then let it be so, if the force wants him to die then let it be so. - the weird thing is that when Donnie goes out all the rebels are pinned down by super heavy fire, but when his friend runs out he has a long grieving sequence where … he just … doesn’t get shot - no offense but I don’t think the Stormtroopers respect that he is grieving - sometimes I feel bad for stormtroopers bcs they’re just doing their thing having mundane conversations and then get shot. but maybe they shouldn’t have become imps. but maybe they’re conscripts?? tough desicion making, gotta shoot a dude, nasty, grit - Cassian’s a bit better than the others on this front (ignore stormtrooper digression) but still … - eeh maybe i’m just pulling this outta my arse. I did find the characters had a bit more depth the second time through since I paid closer attention to dialouge etc. though.

- I’m genuinely surpriesed the top of the transmissions tower had a railing on the sticky-outy bit. I’m entirely unsurprised it had an unecessary sticky-outy bit. - I’m deeply appreciative of the fact that Jyn and Cassian never kiss, that they just hug it out. Fuck you do not know how much I am glad for that. - bit weirded out by the fact that the Death Star apparently got shitter at aiming?

- the move with the Hammerhead was super cool, but do you know what was cooler? everything involving that transmission - visuals: ace - and just the miraculous hand passing - DARTH VADER HALLWAY SCENE - I was giddy throughout this scene does such a terrific job of being tense and terrifing. - Darth Vader ignites his Sabre and appears in from the dark just slightly further forward than you expected him and damn if that isn’t a) unsettling and b) a wild assertion of power then I don’t know what it is - dude flat out puts a dude ON THE CEILING nice. - “help us help us” changing to “take it take it” is so amazing and desparate as these Rebels realise that nothing, not even their silly bombadier hats, is getting them out of this - and then the guy who took the transmission through the door just barely escapes too. fuck. - AND THEN LEIA GETS IT - LEIA LEIA LEIA - I DID know Leia was CGI the first time but honestly it’s barely noticeable, probably since she has a much smoother face? and fewer lines? - whatever she’s beautiful - I’m sure you’ve seen plenty of posts about the start of ANH in the light of this, how Leia is SO OBVIOUSLY BULSHITTING VADER with her 'im on a mission for the imperial senate’ - reminds me of that scene in Chronicles of Yilmaz VIII: The Outlaw: The Fall of Yilmaz, when Tobian says 'You can’t prove shit’ to the shopkeeper who just accused him of stealing and had security footage of it

- anyway how cool is it that two A New Hope patches have been filled - Leia was at Tatooine for a reason (Obi-Wan) and the Death Star had a glaringly stupid weakness becuase they made a GUY WHO DIDN’T WANNA DO IT MAKE IT - also lmao the empire blew up it’s own records wtf were you thinking Tarkin have fun functioning properly now

[sh-lan]

i’m always late for these now but oh well

i can’t believe i’m making an ebay account happy new year LOL

Third day of the new year!

Went to hangout with ryan and leighton. They wanted to try marugame udon so!!! Also i saw adam but didnt say hi, oops. In any case. We were like hey let’s do something like walk around! But it rained a little so we bought some cuties from trader joe’s and ended up at ryan’s house and basically sat in his kotatsu for 4 hours then i came home. I also finally know how it feels like when the manga says that your legs get tangled inside the kotatsu. And when you literally cannot get out of it. Plus the feeling of losing the ability to walk because ya gurl tried to stand up after crawling out of the kotatsu and just fell back down What a day LOL

my brain in general has forgotten how it feels like to study …oh dear

Mommy helped me dye my hair yesterday! It’s lighter than i thought but it was the gray ochre color from palty! And it smells like grape hichews Facetimed vania & yuri today and they noticed the color! And then facetiming with dad and he also noticed LIKE WOW I DIDNT REALIZE PEOPLE COULD TELL? <3

I want a lot of cute phone case but idk what and where to get EDIT: i am still having this problem

I just saw the golden year of the dog items from starbucks korea AND I WANT EDIT: also want the starbucks x pantone planner fml EDIT EDIT: did not end up buying anything good job deborah lan

i was right muster merch colors ARE BEAUTIFUL

The muster merch fmu EDIT: clearly i was overwhelmed with the colors because there were two separate drafts in a row lol

The company insists on having two references….

And now they said they chillin with a peer reference SO I PHONED A FRIEND (aka vania) bless her soul

jan 10th l i f e u p d a t e got the first job offer of my life!! (well official full time offer lol) and so it looks like i’m going to portland? :O

Wow i joined a GO for muster merch New year new me and goodbye money 탕진잼 탕진잼 탕진잼

Wow im glad i submitted the form to get muster merch because THEY ARE SO CUTE AND PRETTY. Okay but i really want PCs so i sincerely hope bighit has some sense and ship PC sets abroad when you order multiple other items Also didnt realize the lenticular key rings would be a hot item but seriously they are so much more adorable than i thought?? Jk’s key ring is so cute i cri EDIT: just found out about no acrylic stand )))): EDIT EDIT: didn’t get squat because ARMYs jump all over everything any time anything is released...

finding housing is hard and i can’t believe that i actually see an appeal to living in downtown…

fmu because bt21 getting released online BUT I REALLY SHOULDN’T BUY but also i finally got my package from jen! ugh omg the bag charms are so cute i don’t know whether to actually use them or keep them in their boxes ;__; and she included some mediheal masks! finally also sent vania her tata as a thank you gift~

deokrim stickers are too cute ima buy two sets

And ugh wow i cant believe i chanced upon cornpeu shop reopening im ded Vania and i didnt catch the timing for bt21 and now i’m still dumping money on bts things HAHA EDIT: not even 15 min after writing this, i bought the stuff from cornpeu lel (which couldve been used to buy the cushion so idk man) time to go preorder for deokrim maybe?

Wow my left hand hurts like shit did i really break it playing superstar bts like mom said? No way right

Ahhhh got my muster merch in the mail today and it’s so niceeee *^* Ima stick that washi tape like everywhere LOL

I hurt myself four different times today smh

In portland for the weekend! I deadass ate two packets of honey roasted peanuts on the plane ride over because i didnt realize i was so hungry and now i’m just waiting for the pimples to cOME ;__;

I walked into a stationery store in portland and just. FOUND MY PEACE. jk but i bought some stickers i been looking at online blesssss

No. Tax. Anywhere. (So far)

I had coke last night after my flight and i legit didnt feel tired until 3:30am oops

Omfg i cant believe someone was selling the trust issues photobook by snowpeach in the luce in altis project for $15 last night WOW LIKE THE FEW DAYS I DONT CHECK SHIT, THERE’S ALL KINDS OF SHIT I WANT. $15 is so cheap ;___;

went to portland with alice to check out apartments!!! woot. lots of fun going around/looking at the city. landed on thursday night and waited at the airport for alice and ate mcdonalds/watched the office haha friday: alice had work all day ): so i went out to meet up with yuri and leslie who happened to be out in portland too! walked to the alberta arts district to eat with them at pok pok noi. just walked around afterwards exploring in the rain before getting back home to eat dinner with alice at like 8…lol we went to bamboo sushi in sw and alice treated me to omakase as a congrats on getting my new yob!! woot also did some walking around in the neighborhood - will likely spend quite a bit of time in the powell city of books! saturday: the day we actually went out to see properties! grabbed some blue star donuts and headed into nw district - looked at some apartments and then grabbed lunch at this cute italian place that i will most likely frequent. started talking to alice about stuff and being weak, i cried and then we got free hazelnut ice cream…LOL. it was really good sunday: since we toured places that i actually liked yesterday, we basically just decided to walk around different areas. waterfront park, pioneer square…we spent a while in nordstrom rack and sephora looking for stuff for alice! lol. then dinner again at bamboo sushi and dessert at salt & straw :> monday morning: waking up early to get to the airport for alice’s flight. bought more donuts at the airport for mom! then i sat at the airport watching the office and eating until the airplane ride where i got a whole row to myself~

and that was my portland trip shortened LOL. but~ excited about the new city, definitely excited about the donuts!

Furniture shopping is hard Moving is hard Everythinf comes down to money S M H

Got approved for my apartment today!! #excited

legit on phone calls for an hour getting stuff down and ready. now to wait on emails so i can get to the next step to sign my lease!

It’s been hot in sf like ??? In other news, i put coconut oil in ma hair - let’s see how it feels tomorrow! :O EDIT: idk, it didn’t feel different?

Omg feb 5th: suddenly a day where i can play hard mode on ssbts wow what a day

I just saw the new bts game where you get to “live chat” the boys as the user becomes the manager and takes care of the bois I am literally gonna die All armys gonna die Why do they do this to us …BECAUSE THEY KNOW WE’LL NEVER BE THEIR MANAGERS

Today i threw away my first lip tint because it looked funky funks and was like dying Good bye you were good to me - onto more an new lip tints! On another note. The balenciaga cap is $350??!?!

Being fat today and ordered three desserts with han at creations. And then went to the beach because pokemon but ended up star-gazing and it was niceee

Just came across its it ice creams on IG and since it’s been so hot (cause like spring came early or something??) i want it!! Also, it’s like the only time i ever consume oatmeal raisin cookies (unless they just oatmeal - in which case, delicious) But omg i didnt know strawberry is an OG flavor? Althought mint reigns supreme. But. GREEN TEA??

A BUMBLEBEE FLEW INTO MY HOUSE THE OTHER DAY AND I WAS ALONE AND COULDNT HELP also raided mewtwo yesterday!! Woot. Surprisingly got the gym bonus after much hardwork but dayum caught with only one ball LOL

Ever since that one time on the airplane with the weird ass headache/tension above my left eyebrow….i got like two headaches in a week that were like that. Also in between those, my right ear hurts and honestly…am i broken somewhere cause lel Body please get better

Lmao so last time i put on a screen protector, i cracked it in two days cause i dropped it. And i just put on a new one last week and lo and behold, it hath cracked again but this time, in my purse. I’m so ????? Smh

Landed in portland once again with han for move in!! Woke up super early…. Just went to target/tj maxx to buy stuff. Smh should’ve bought a swiffer and gotten it sent here ): Got a shower rug! THE SOFT SQUISHY ONE. But failed in the shower curtain department cause it’s too short… Makeshift bed with blankets and bed sheets lol…we shall await the mattress coming in tomorrow~ Do have quite a bit of stuff to buy in general…): Anyways. Had a burrito for dinner and like ?!! Aluminum foil gave me an aluminum cut so…ow No internets yet - good thing han downloaded some movies!

My cuticles are dying because my hands are dry and wow this is terribad

Went and bought a shitton of strawberry chocolates for 50% off at cvs MUAHAHA

Went to macy’s (or we’ve been going often since it’s going out of business so things are going on sale) and got the seiko watch i was kinda eyeing last time. ONLY TO FIND OUT (forgot to check on amazon) that it was 38 dollahs cheaper ;__; but. EHHH it’s all good. Seems like the one on amazon has strap problems being too smol so…like, it’s totally chill

February 19th

My first day of work!! Went in earlies and had onboarding for about two hours with amother new hire. Then i returned to my room where i met my coworker and my manager! Both of whom are in the same room and we each have a desk. (Ima have to request a standing desk :O) anywayss. Got a company laptop - thank god it’s not bulky. And then i’ve got two monitors on my desk too! #bless

Then jlw went through more ux stuff with me and i also went to a stand up meeting. Like. Those are real man. Then went to company lunch! Where new hires introduce themselves and i realize that i have never used a dishwasher before and everyone was shookt lol.

Afterwards, i went to a sprint meeting AND BOIIIII PLANNING POKER DOE??? Lololol. I have to say i did not understand a single thing that was going on. Took about an hour and a half…

Anyways. went back in where jlw continued where she left off and then finally let me read some onboarding stuff on my own before she headed out at 4 and then me, leaving swiftly at 4 as well LOL

SO that was my first day! Trying to get everything in order - i hope that everything goes great and that i learn lots and lots! :> although…windows computer already killing me, no wonder people use mouses instead of the trackpad. Also…gotta learn Axure + in depth photoshop so…WOOT WOOT

Oh and we also have a huge snack cabinet i might just become a potato

Light snowfall is so pleasant :>

Bucketlist checklist:

Eat alone - check! First lunch break :> (exciting!)

Watch a movie by myself - check! Love, Simon

Second day - drank too much coffee while i’m still weak against caffeine. It’s 1:26am. HNNNGH

i got really bored at work today because even though it’s week 2 now, i was done with my shit at like 2pm so i just started looking at axure tutorials for another however long until 4:30 LOL side note: might actually do my post-its idea thing then i realize that i didn’t bring any post-its over to portland… also i cracked my screen again today because i slammed it on the counter while trying to save it from falling so did i really save it….

bought rice and shin ramen on amazon lel

Gonna try out my post it idea in the office tomorrow. Hope it goes well 🤞

2/28/17 First ever happy hour but also goodbye party for kyle - also like the first time i talked to him since the one and a half week i been there (minus when we introduced ourselves) but sads cause he was kinda a squish and everyone seemed to have a chill time working with him :/ oh well

ALSO THE FIRST DAY THAT YA GURL GOT PAID $$$ (which is just directly going to rent - oh the woe of getting paid bi-monthly LOL)

Wow i did a great job sticking on my phone screen protector! #yes EDIT: no i didnt. It’s blocking the camera slightly on top smh

Ya gurl cut her finger on a tape measure lmfaooo

Alice came two weekends in a row to help me buy and build stuff and daymn. That was some hard work and tbh i only built a shelf and a bed LOOOOL I think ima go for the sofa + table rather than the desk. I think it might work! Also went to ashun market. Good weekend :>

I went bowling today!! It was an engineering celebration so i thought - why not, let’s be social for a little bit. And it turned out to be fun~ we had some fuds and i played two rounds. And I got a strike in one of the rounds! Woot woot. Anyways. It was enjoyable, not as awkward as i had envisioned. Also i was able to successfully catch the bus home so that was great :>

I think i’m reverting back to my eating habits because there are ENDLESS SNACKS IN THE OFFICE. Oh dear

Really actually thinking about that dicon photobook because the pictures are so nice :<

ALSO FINALLY FCKIN DISCOVERED ELECTRICITY CHARGE ON KWH DIFFERS ON A MONTH TO MONTH BASIS in addition to usage. Wow the things you discover and uncover as you adult

Also city of portland why do you have a base charge of $11???????

Ahhh xfinity wifi was too good to be true Apparently only 5 devices could connect to it at one time. So i guess i gotta shop for internets now…LOL EDIT: NAWP. ALL GOOD. THAT WAS FOR HOME HOTSPOT. WOOT

Lmao my manager went to ucsd when marshall was still called third im

In other news. It looks like my one on one anxiety wont dissipate soon. Esp since last week, the vp of engineering just sent me a calendar invite for a one on one and i literally got stressed out for a straight 30 min before i said yes to the invite and could slowly go back to focusing on work lol…. EDIT: it ended up being around 15 minutes and i did not really enjoy it at all

We are bulletproof pt 2 came on today while i was walking and i still cannot believe that the first lines still got me smiling like a fckin idiot

Ok so i finally talked to this girl at work (who i think is really pretty omfg) the other day and she’d been curling her hair recently and as we were walking out of the bathroom i was like I REALLY LIKE YOUR HAIR And then she said my hair is so straight and healthy - “do you straighten it? It’s really pretty” and i’m just over here crying on the inside because it looks like hay and only happened to be really straight that day for god knows what reason. SO BASICALLY THE STARS ALIGNED JUST SO WE COULD HAVE THIS CONVERSATION Also she said she recently bought a curler that just “does it for you” and gurl i need that because idk how to DO ANYTHING TO MY HAIR UGH

I woke up with the blankets already nicely proportioned off the sides of my bed - so i just crawled out without making my bed today lool

Thought i could handle watching burn the stage but i saw the screenshot of jungkook lying down and it already broke my heart Need to be secluded with some tissues ;__;

A two day trip to see The Rose in seattle or a five day trip in san diego… 🤔🤔🤔

last day of march went to lunch with my coworkers for the first time and i actually enjoyed it! it was fun :> glad that my coworker actually dropped by the office to invite us to lunch~

good friday today because:

lunch was good

really honestly did nothing because we were troubleshooting visual studio

also basically did nothing because double sprint planning and retro LOL

HEADING HOME FOR THE WEEKEND UNTIL WEDNESDAY

#gotpaid

but no joke, on the ride to the airport, i got carsick and i honestly didn’t even know that was possible but if you think about it, i basically haven’t been on any kind of transportation for at least a month… also my uber driver is like some viet gangsta or something that gets pulled into the room every time he tries to go to canada O_O LOL

Deadass trying to save money but The rose concert in seattle, want to make an sd trip, want the 2k18 asia trip But also bts comeback sometime during the first half of the year and SUDDENLY WANNA ONE IS GOING TO HAVE A WORLD TOUR??? Dammit dude DAMMIT

My heart dies a little every time my coworker comes by and invites me to lunch with everyone *ugly sobs* Dies a little in a good way - just for clarification LOL

Mom dyed my hair for me! And it was darker than i thought BUT GREAT. Curiously enough, after two washes…it’s already lightening?? NO PLEASE STAY DARK. PLEASE. EDIT: lol i realized there was another “mother dyed my hair” somewhere on top lel. just for clarification - nobody else dyes my hair including myself cause i am incapable lOL

omfg i just saw the we bare bears x spao collab AND THEN FOUND THE ADVENTURE TIME X SPAO CLOTHES, SO CUTE!!! the jake and bmo hoodie )):

didn’t realize that i missed them so much ;__; we thought we would all die with the black hair but actually they just killed us with softness good thing they didn’t come out with foreheads lOL

okay lol basically that’s it because nothing happens in my life although i realze that i video recorded a lot of experiences and they’re all just video files sitting on my phone and that’s why maybe i haven’t been writing any everyday things down :O will i ever edit them? unclear

in any case - planning lots of fun things for the months to come hopefully!